Insomnia
It's 3:30 am.
I can't sleep.
I had a trashy brain-candy book I read...
Then I lay here for hours... in the dark...
Then I got up and cleaned my room.
I made the bed.
I got back online (probably not the best idea)
I'm listening to Soothing music...
I'm doing random Wiki-research...
I just learned that there's Another Jewish holiday this month, dear G-d! Now that I'm actually paying attention I see that the Jews are even crazier about piling the holidays onto one another than the Xtians are. Not only that but for American Jews; just as soon as they're out of Sukkot (sp?) they dive into Halloween, which is followed by premature Christmas (craptastic holiday music and decor begins), then Thanksgiving, followed by MASSIVE onslaught of Christmas fervor, a sad little Hanukah that they never seem to be thrilled about anyway (I can see why!) and then real Christmas (The day to eat Chinese food and go to the movies) followed by the Gregorian New Year. It's overwhelming to think about... for me at least.
Life is too stressful right now. I have little to look forward to from day to day which makes it all difficult to fall asleep... and then difficult to get up... I want to have just One job. Just one where I know how much I'm making every month... one w-2 at the end of the year... no job hustling all the freaking time... no new contract negotiations every month... this is why I'm an insomniac!
Ok... now I think I will not be reading my trashy book again, but rather I shall turn off the light again and listen to my Soothing music... no holidays, no work, nothing but music... yes mmm quiet quiet... sleeeep....
I can't sleep.
I had a trashy brain-candy book I read...
Then I lay here for hours... in the dark...
Then I got up and cleaned my room.
I made the bed.
I got back online (probably not the best idea)
I'm listening to Soothing music...
I'm doing random Wiki-research...
I just learned that there's Another Jewish holiday this month, dear G-d! Now that I'm actually paying attention I see that the Jews are even crazier about piling the holidays onto one another than the Xtians are. Not only that but for American Jews; just as soon as they're out of Sukkot (sp?) they dive into Halloween, which is followed by premature Christmas (craptastic holiday music and decor begins), then Thanksgiving, followed by MASSIVE onslaught of Christmas fervor, a sad little Hanukah that they never seem to be thrilled about anyway (I can see why!) and then real Christmas (The day to eat Chinese food and go to the movies) followed by the Gregorian New Year. It's overwhelming to think about... for me at least.
Life is too stressful right now. I have little to look forward to from day to day which makes it all difficult to fall asleep... and then difficult to get up... I want to have just One job. Just one where I know how much I'm making every month... one w-2 at the end of the year... no job hustling all the freaking time... no new contract negotiations every month... this is why I'm an insomniac!
Ok... now I think I will not be reading my trashy book again, but rather I shall turn off the light again and listen to my Soothing music... no holidays, no work, nothing but music... yes mmm quiet quiet... sleeeep....