sleepless
Waiting for sleep to find me and I wonder what it's like for other people... this falling asleep and waking up business. It seems like most of the time I have a hard time falling asleep and a hard time waking up... at night I cannot fall asleep because my brain is whizzing at a million miles a second. I'm lonely. I'm worried. I'm lonely... When I have someone near who makes me less lonely, I can get to sleep better... but that's hardly ever at all. I worry about the things that I didn't do and the things ahead. I worry about the state of the world and I re-live the day in my head and the things I could have done better, the things I should have said... This is what keeps me up.
At the other end when I have succumb to sleep and I wake. It is the only time when my brain is calm. I wake and I have nothing to say. I work on auto pilot if I have anywhere to be. I make coffee. I look out the window... it's all very quiet.
If only I could reverse the polarities of these situations. In the morning I could wake up and bound out of bed because I'd have so much on my mind and then by the time the evening rolls around I'd be at peace and ready to just lie down and let sleep roll over me...
... still waiting for sleep to come. I cannot do anything too stimulating. I should put the computer down really... stupid brain!
At the other end when I have succumb to sleep and I wake. It is the only time when my brain is calm. I wake and I have nothing to say. I work on auto pilot if I have anywhere to be. I make coffee. I look out the window... it's all very quiet.
If only I could reverse the polarities of these situations. In the morning I could wake up and bound out of bed because I'd have so much on my mind and then by the time the evening rolls around I'd be at peace and ready to just lie down and let sleep roll over me...
... still waiting for sleep to come. I cannot do anything too stimulating. I should put the computer down really... stupid brain!