i do not fit the mold she hoped i would one day grow into.

[elbow]

It is her choice to take this the way she is. I am not responsible for the pain she is feeling. I told her in the best way that I knew how. It wasn't perfect. But there is no perfect way to tell someone. I only know that I will never be at peace with everyone around me, but that I must be at peace with myself.

I am truly sorry for the hurt that I'm causing by the way I live my life. But I am not sorry for being myself.

I hope her trip to Africa will help her wake up from this "nightmare" she thinks she is in, and realize there are worse things in the world than this.