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dear you-
why cant i stop thinking about you even though you treated me like shit? you didnt realize you were doing it....but you treated me like i was invisible. you blew me off, you didnt call when u said u would -u didnt talk when u said u would..u kept me here hanging onto you..hanging onto the memory of you...and i put up with it..because i loved you. you complained about the people who hurt you in the past, but if you did this to them too....then maybe i understand why they hurt you. maybe you werent always the victim. if i didnt text u back, u'd freak..where was she..why wasnt she answering..if you didnt text me back, like you barely ever did.........id just feel as if maybe you had something more important to do. why did you do this?! why.....what did i do to make you do this to me. maybe u never were a good boyfriend, maybe i wanted you to be..why am i so stupid sometimes..why dont i realize when people are treating me like shit...how many times did you cheat on me? truely..how many times - i always had a gut feeling that you did........but you would never admit it, instead ud go on hurting me. why did you hurt me? what did i do to deserve it from you. all idid was love you. thats all i ever did...i never would hurt you, or lie to you - all i did was love you. and all you did, was cause me pain. you gave me a few good smiles, made me fel beautiful...a few times, but you truely realized, that in the midst of that - you treated me like i was invisible. i couldnt be someone to you. i couldnt be your girl, - i had to be invisible. if i talked when you were on the phone, you got angry. - why? .. why couldnt i be to you, what you were to me. does this make you feel like you someone?!!? does it?!?! DID YOU GET PLEASURE OF HURTING ME. FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU........
why cant i stop thinking about you even though you treated me like shit? you didnt realize you were doing it....but you treated me like i was invisible. you blew me off, you didnt call when u said u would -u didnt talk when u said u would..u kept me here hanging onto you..hanging onto the memory of you...and i put up with it..because i loved you. you complained about the people who hurt you in the past, but if you did this to them too....then maybe i understand why they hurt you. maybe you werent always the victim. if i didnt text u back, u'd freak..where was she..why wasnt she answering..if you didnt text me back, like you barely ever did.........id just feel as if maybe you had something more important to do. why did you do this?! why.....what did i do to make you do this to me. maybe u never were a good boyfriend, maybe i wanted you to be..why am i so stupid sometimes..why dont i realize when people are treating me like shit...how many times did you cheat on me? truely..how many times - i always had a gut feeling that you did........but you would never admit it, instead ud go on hurting me. why did you hurt me? what did i do to deserve it from you. all idid was love you. thats all i ever did...i never would hurt you, or lie to you - all i did was love you. and all you did, was cause me pain. you gave me a few good smiles, made me fel beautiful...a few times, but you truely realized, that in the midst of that - you treated me like i was invisible. i couldnt be someone to you. i couldnt be your girl, - i had to be invisible. if i talked when you were on the phone, you got angry. - why? .. why couldnt i be to you, what you were to me. does this make you feel like you someone?!!? does it?!?! DID YOU GET PLEASURE OF HURTING ME. FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU........