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[elanurel]

Am I the only one still not getting all of her LJ comments? Just checking and all... I logged into the fic journal this morning and there were comments I've never even seen. Ditto for this one this morning

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[elanurel]

I still have outstanding comments out there that I know I've not received, even though I've received responses to the original comments. My head now officially hurts.

I've experienced the "end of story" letdown, too. The story is finished, it's satisfying, but...I'm not ready to get off the roller coaster yet. I don't know why that is. Maybe it's a little like postpartum depression?

That's an excellent analogy, actually. It is a creative process, after all. In this case, I am writing a story in the most personal AU I've created - I still can't get College!Dean out of my head but the only other option, at this point, is to write yet a third story from Sam's point of view. And I'm not certain I'm ready for that right now.

Maybe next year.

And I think talking to your doctor about your list is A Very Good Idea. 'Cause I could go on for days about my thoughts on the matter

Well...

The one person whom I thought would be the most concerned about it actually had the least problem with it. On the other hand, John had the benefit of conversing with me immediately after I posted it and knew that it wasn't simply me bashing myself. I was trying to be introspective and list what I felt were issues I needed to work on, without the benefit of excuses.

I guess what didn't come across in the post is that I didn't think I was simply the sum of those things, merely that they were parts of myself which I wanted to fix and fears that I needed to voice so that I could face them instead of allowing them to control me. Hence the fact that I listed them.

And also the reason why I made the list private again.