The One That Got Away
Is it me, or is this concept perpetually disturbing?
This is the kind of flighty reasoning that allowed my selfish father to cheat on my mother. He always seemed to think the grass was greener over the septic tank. Fucker.
Now I'm here for the first time in a long time. Brian and I have had our ups and downs, but now it seems we're on a steady incline. He's finally decided to move in with me (sans the "Real World" drama with the roomies), and we're engaged and discussing wedding plans. Ugh. Too much work.
However, there is still and inkling of doubt. This is so faint that I barley ever register it in my mind most of the time. But once in a while the question arises...Will he bore of me someday?
My dad grew bored of my mom, and suddenly every other woman was "the one that got away". That he "couldn't help himself." That the "heart wants what it wants." He just fell in love with someone else. Four times.
Fucker.
I HATE this hairy-fairy wishy washy type of thinking. This reasoning lack discipline of mind and spirit. It shows a lack in emotional maturity.
Again I say...Fucker.
I'm very glad that Brian is not like this...but what if later on I become commonplace? Perhaps then he might not be so steadfast.
But I know him. He is painfully practical. He's not the type to follow this inconstant logic....Right?
This is the kind of flighty reasoning that allowed my selfish father to cheat on my mother. He always seemed to think the grass was greener over the septic tank. Fucker.
Now I'm here for the first time in a long time. Brian and I have had our ups and downs, but now it seems we're on a steady incline. He's finally decided to move in with me (sans the "Real World" drama with the roomies), and we're engaged and discussing wedding plans. Ugh. Too much work.
However, there is still and inkling of doubt. This is so faint that I barley ever register it in my mind most of the time. But once in a while the question arises...Will he bore of me someday?
My dad grew bored of my mom, and suddenly every other woman was "the one that got away". That he "couldn't help himself." That the "heart wants what it wants." He just fell in love with someone else. Four times.
Fucker.
I HATE this hairy-fairy wishy washy type of thinking. This reasoning lack discipline of mind and spirit. It shows a lack in emotional maturity.
Again I say...Fucker.
I'm very glad that Brian is not like this...but what if later on I become commonplace? Perhaps then he might not be so steadfast.
But I know him. He is painfully practical. He's not the type to follow this inconstant logic....Right?