on the roof, burning black, the city smoked from the attack
You know, I've been doing all this fitness-y stuff, I've been eating lots of fruits and veg. (Alright, I cheated last night....I had a cheese sandwich.) Yet, I don't think I've actually lost any wieght! Maybe I'm just impatient, expecting results too soon. It's just very fraustrating to be doing all these things and not have anything to show for it besides permanant pain when I walk up the steps to my room to collapse into bed after running a mile! I do, however, feel better about myself. I just don't look any better and that's what I really want! Maybe,I've just gotten suckered into the mass marketing that's taking over. It only took 19 years before it tore apart myself esteem, it must be a record. I feel like a teenage emo kid. "Oh, I'm not good enough, no one will ever love me, woe." Ugh, I'm disgusting.
ALRIGHT! ENOUGH OF THIS BULLSHIT. I have to call my school, make an appointment for the eye doctor (am getting glasses, will be able to see properly), call Subway and Walmart to see if they would ever so kindly hire me. Subway looks promising, but for the amount of aggravation I went though to fill out the Walmart App I want to at least have an interview. OH GOD, interviews. .....MAYBE IF I WERE PRETTIER THEY WOULD HIRE ME! Oh, go slit your wrists emo kid.
This post was brought to you by a pot of coffee and four hours of sleep. :DD Starting tommorrow I'm replacing my standard pot of coffee with another mile run.
How did I not notice how awesome Say Anything is? Oh, yeah, I was taken in by the cutesie music video for "Alive in the Glory of Love". You know, for how emo I'm being I'm not actually listening to very much emo music. A lot of They Might Be Giants and The Ting Tings, not exactly sad music. :DD
ALRIGHT! ENOUGH OF THIS BULLSHIT. I have to call my school, make an appointment for the eye doctor (am getting glasses, will be able to see properly), call Subway and Walmart to see if they would ever so kindly hire me. Subway looks promising, but for the amount of aggravation I went though to fill out the Walmart App I want to at least have an interview. OH GOD, interviews. .....MAYBE IF I WERE PRETTIER THEY WOULD HIRE ME! Oh, go slit your wrists emo kid.
This post was brought to you by a pot of coffee and four hours of sleep. :DD Starting tommorrow I'm replacing my standard pot of coffee with another mile run.
How did I not notice how awesome Say Anything is? Oh, yeah, I was taken in by the cutesie music video for "Alive in the Glory of Love". You know, for how emo I'm being I'm not actually listening to very much emo music. A lot of They Might Be Giants and The Ting Tings, not exactly sad music. :DD