here we fucking go again
once again i find myself at 2 in the morning after getting off the phone with you having had another big argument where one or both of us threatens to stop talking to the other one once and for all. and once again find myself wondering what is the point of all of this. no point, i think. just endless discussions that don't go anywhere and don't need to be had. is this a good thing because it shows there's still some strong emotions there? is it making a painful thing even worse because it brings up stuff from the past and drags out even further the long process of moving on? who the fuck knows. right now i don't have the energy or desire to try and figure it all out, i don't even know if it would be possible.