Is it bedtime yet?
I still feel old. I'm ready for bed by about 7. Normally I can't go to bed, until, say, 9:30 when I'm falling asleep in whatever I'm working on, but I'm ready as soon as I walk in the door.
I stopped taking birth control. I felt like the ups and downs were too emotionally overwhelming. I mean, I'd been on it a year and I still cried on average about 3 times a week. I asked my doctor about alternatives, and he basically told me that as far as hormonal contraceptives were concerned, there were none, which I really find hard to believe since I know there are at least 6 or 7 different hormonal combinations of oral contraceptives. But Dr. Thompson blew me off and acted like I was stupid when I said we'd try just using condoms. He was really a jerk about it. I left his office in tears. So, as soon as I find her number and remember to call, I'm trying this foreign lady, named Dr. Kappu. Another girl in my class said she was really nice and good.
I've really felt better off of them. Yes, my biological processes are all out of whack, and it's made.. other activities more difficult... But my self-esteem is better. OR maybe it's just different... I still feel insecure, but I'm not depressed about it, which happened alot with the nuvaring.
Speaking of hormones, there are MORE than enough in nursing school. I cannot express how much drama there is in one room of 40 people. One girl in particular, Nicole, is about to drive me CRAZY. I don't know if she has some kind of complex where she thinks she has to put everyone down, feels she has to measure her worth by the amount of expensive stuff she has, or simply has the most annoying nasal voice I've ever heard in my life, or what, but it's taking all I've got not to lash out at her. So any prayers out there for anger management would be appreciated.
I'm tutoring now. I had my first hour today. It went really well, but it was exhausting! I must admit that I have my work cut out for me, though. I started a Yahoo! Group so people could ask questions even when I wasn't around, but nobody seems really interested. I thought it was neat. So did my boss.. He even told his boss about me.
Aaron's at another meeting... He's had a lot of those here lately. It's not that I doubt that that's where he's going or anything... But it sometimes gets a little hard when your good day is seeing the person you live with for maybe 2 or 3 hours. I know I just made it worse by signing up to tutor, but Citizens wasn't giving me anything... We can live without my income, but if the $120 paycheck I bring in helps me not feel quite so much on pins and needles when it comes time to pay bills, I think it's worth it.
Plus, we need to save... I want and need a new car when I graduate... and I know eventually I'd like to get in a house on the ground...
I wouldn't say my Med-Surg class is kicking my butt, but it's certainly not easy. I've read the chapters, not as in-depth as I should have, but I paid attention.. and I think I've got, like, an 88 average or so. I need to bring it up so I don't have to worry about finals.
I'm at the hospital now for my clinicals. It's a lot different than the state school or the nursing homes... I really like it, and I felt like I've learned a lot. I feel like I could learn more, but I don't know how. Plus, sitting all week and then turning around and standing all day doesn't make for a very good feeling in my feet, and that keeps me from wanting to run around at clinical. I think my shoes are too small. Mom has said she help me buy some more, but I haven't done it. I guess I could do that tonight...
Well, regardless of what I do, I should do something. I have a med test at 8... yay.
I stopped taking birth control. I felt like the ups and downs were too emotionally overwhelming. I mean, I'd been on it a year and I still cried on average about 3 times a week. I asked my doctor about alternatives, and he basically told me that as far as hormonal contraceptives were concerned, there were none, which I really find hard to believe since I know there are at least 6 or 7 different hormonal combinations of oral contraceptives. But Dr. Thompson blew me off and acted like I was stupid when I said we'd try just using condoms. He was really a jerk about it. I left his office in tears. So, as soon as I find her number and remember to call, I'm trying this foreign lady, named Dr. Kappu. Another girl in my class said she was really nice and good.
I've really felt better off of them. Yes, my biological processes are all out of whack, and it's made.. other activities more difficult... But my self-esteem is better. OR maybe it's just different... I still feel insecure, but I'm not depressed about it, which happened alot with the nuvaring.
Speaking of hormones, there are MORE than enough in nursing school. I cannot express how much drama there is in one room of 40 people. One girl in particular, Nicole, is about to drive me CRAZY. I don't know if she has some kind of complex where she thinks she has to put everyone down, feels she has to measure her worth by the amount of expensive stuff she has, or simply has the most annoying nasal voice I've ever heard in my life, or what, but it's taking all I've got not to lash out at her. So any prayers out there for anger management would be appreciated.
I'm tutoring now. I had my first hour today. It went really well, but it was exhausting! I must admit that I have my work cut out for me, though. I started a Yahoo! Group so people could ask questions even when I wasn't around, but nobody seems really interested. I thought it was neat. So did my boss.. He even told his boss about me.
Aaron's at another meeting... He's had a lot of those here lately. It's not that I doubt that that's where he's going or anything... But it sometimes gets a little hard when your good day is seeing the person you live with for maybe 2 or 3 hours. I know I just made it worse by signing up to tutor, but Citizens wasn't giving me anything... We can live without my income, but if the $120 paycheck I bring in helps me not feel quite so much on pins and needles when it comes time to pay bills, I think it's worth it.
Plus, we need to save... I want and need a new car when I graduate... and I know eventually I'd like to get in a house on the ground...
I wouldn't say my Med-Surg class is kicking my butt, but it's certainly not easy. I've read the chapters, not as in-depth as I should have, but I paid attention.. and I think I've got, like, an 88 average or so. I need to bring it up so I don't have to worry about finals.
I'm at the hospital now for my clinicals. It's a lot different than the state school or the nursing homes... I really like it, and I felt like I've learned a lot. I feel like I could learn more, but I don't know how. Plus, sitting all week and then turning around and standing all day doesn't make for a very good feeling in my feet, and that keeps me from wanting to run around at clinical. I think my shoes are too small. Mom has said she help me buy some more, but I haven't done it. I guess I could do that tonight...
Well, regardless of what I do, I should do something. I have a med test at 8... yay.