Last night I was up til 3am crying. It started out feeling guilty about things I had done/had not done while Lael was alive, and then turned into shock and terror when I remembered that that body I had said goodbye to was hers and she's not coming back. I had felt so much relief that the funeral was over and things were calming down a little, and ( Read more... )

I miss my beautiful boy. I miss the feeling of his contours against myself. I have a beautiful boy right now, but he doesn't fit right, and never will, and shouldn't. We both agree on this fact. So we remain friends who need to take a bus trip together. But my love, my soul, my Boy (with the capitol B) is so far away and so hard to get in touch ( Read more... )

My "Grandma" June died on Monday. I just found out when I called her house to tell her my brother and I were coming to visit tomorrow with a present for her. Her funeral was this morning, and they tried to get in touch with me, but they couldn't find where she had put my number, so I had to find out today when I called. I was just out by her house ( Read more... )

I miss Josh ( Read more... )

I feel badly, but I miss Nick ( Read more... )