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One more week until my birthday and for some strange reason it really doesn't make me happy. Instead it makes me want to cry. I love my birthday but time is going by too fast, I really don't want to grow up. I am still not ready.
So I am back to my confused state. I am confused on everything from life to even school work. ARGH! I only wish things were a bit clearer, maybe that way I wouldn't feel so depressed.
Oh yea for those who don't know my birthday falls on Saturday, which sucks for me because that means I can't have two birthdays. (The actual one and then of course the food, family, and friends one on the weekend) My birthday sucks....my birthday is stoopid...it is sad that the only thing I am looking forward to is playing twister for the first time and getting a few gifts (even though I know that I won't get many cuz well it is on saturday and everyone is gonna forget my birthday)
Things with the family aren't so well either, only a few of you might know exactly what I mean. Long story short, my oldest sister is making a huge drama over nothing. She has basically separated all of us, she won't even let us talk to her children or them to us. (They have tried talking to us) It is just a big mess and she just has her story mixed up or just doesn't want to admit that she is wrong....ARGH! SHES PISSES ME OFF!