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Weakness~
I have all these strengths. I've been told as much. Most days, I feel it too.
Strong-willed
Strong legs
Strong sense of self
Strong relationships with family
Strong, emotionally, concerning my daughter
Strong of heart... and this is what makes me weak.
I need to believe the best about people
even when the benefit of the doubt is only a tiny sliver of light.
I am weak when it comes to certain people
and mostly, I do not love them for this power
It makes me writhe in discomfort
indignant and bright-eyed
It makes me tremble in his arms,
terrified of the reality
I need to see,
that I fight so hard to ignore.
I can argue circles round anyone,
I can logically dissect,
hypocritically point my finger,
and laugh when I shouldn't,
but it takes me ages to admit
admit to myself
that it's never going to be what I want.
I have all these strengths. I've been told as much. Most days, I feel it too.
Strong-willed
Strong legs
Strong sense of self
Strong relationships with family
Strong, emotionally, concerning my daughter
Strong of heart... and this is what makes me weak.
I need to believe the best about people
even when the benefit of the doubt is only a tiny sliver of light.
I am weak when it comes to certain people
and mostly, I do not love them for this power
It makes me writhe in discomfort
indignant and bright-eyed
It makes me tremble in his arms,
terrified of the reality
I need to see,
that I fight so hard to ignore.
I can argue circles round anyone,
I can logically dissect,
hypocritically point my finger,
and laugh when I shouldn't,
but it takes me ages to admit
admit to myself
that it's never going to be what I want.