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I realy don't know where to begin so I'll just start from the begining. So here I am hanging out with this girl hearing from everyone even her that she wants nothing more than friends but when me and her are alone her eyes and her actions say the exact opposite. I don't know what to beleive so like I do ALL THE TIME I beleive what I want wich is that she wants more than what she says she does. Today she told me she had somthing to tell me that she says isn't important but to me it is. I NEED TO KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING THROUGH HER HEAD WHEN SHE IS WITH ME! It's hard to beleive her somtimes because she gives off this signs she doesn't give to any of her other friends. I don't know what to do anymore and right now I am so pissed off at her and I hate it. I know it's dumb but even though she thinks it's not important it is very important for me. I have been told several times that she wants to be friends and obviously it didn't hurt me that bad because I set myself up again and again every time. No matter what she says to me I want her to know that I WILL BE FINE NO MATTER WHAT IT IS SHE HAS TO SAY. I am a mature person even though I don't show it alot of the time. I Know how to deal with my emotions and I don't think she does and I think that is why she is either doing one of several things.
1)She is lying to me about not wanting to be more than friends and is just scared somthing bad will happen which I promise and everyone who knows me knows that I wouldn't dream of ever hurting someone I care about.
2)She is lying to herself and saying over and over again in her head that she doesn't like me more than a friend but when she comes around she gets like me and can't help but feel more. Which is rediculous.
3)She is just being an ignorant person and just playing with my emotions and dragging me along for a hell of a ride. I honestly don't see that being the case but you never know with chicks sometimes.
4)She is just confused about what she wants and about what I want but that can be solved with a nice talk as can any case.
Honestly I hope that she realizes how stupid it is that she won't talk to me about this because it may not be a big deal to her but she doesn't know what goes through my head when she does some of the shit she does.I have had time to think about it and I'm not pissed anymore but more let down. I was looking forward to seeing her and hearing what she has to say.She obviously didnt feel the same way but what can you do right?I guess I can move on now.Maybe this will work out for the better but who knows I'll probably be back to my old shit in no time but you know what, maybe I like getting hurt or just don't care because when I see this girl I am so into her I forget about what happens EVERY TIME! I don't want shit to get wierd so I won't let it and I don't want her to stop coming around because she is worried about me.After this I am fine and I want her to know I don't see her differently but I do think she is being immature and inconsiderate about my feelings and I don't like that.When ever you are ready to talk about what you wanted to say give me a call and until then I don't think I wanna talk to you, sorry, and I'm sorry for everything I put you through I should have been smarter about it.PEACE OUT!
1)She is lying to me about not wanting to be more than friends and is just scared somthing bad will happen which I promise and everyone who knows me knows that I wouldn't dream of ever hurting someone I care about.
2)She is lying to herself and saying over and over again in her head that she doesn't like me more than a friend but when she comes around she gets like me and can't help but feel more. Which is rediculous.
3)She is just being an ignorant person and just playing with my emotions and dragging me along for a hell of a ride. I honestly don't see that being the case but you never know with chicks sometimes.
4)She is just confused about what she wants and about what I want but that can be solved with a nice talk as can any case.
Honestly I hope that she realizes how stupid it is that she won't talk to me about this because it may not be a big deal to her but she doesn't know what goes through my head when she does some of the shit she does.I have had time to think about it and I'm not pissed anymore but more let down. I was looking forward to seeing her and hearing what she has to say.She obviously didnt feel the same way but what can you do right?I guess I can move on now.Maybe this will work out for the better but who knows I'll probably be back to my old shit in no time but you know what, maybe I like getting hurt or just don't care because when I see this girl I am so into her I forget about what happens EVERY TIME! I don't want shit to get wierd so I won't let it and I don't want her to stop coming around because she is worried about me.After this I am fine and I want her to know I don't see her differently but I do think she is being immature and inconsiderate about my feelings and I don't like that.When ever you are ready to talk about what you wanted to say give me a call and until then I don't think I wanna talk to you, sorry, and I'm sorry for everything I put you through I should have been smarter about it.PEACE OUT!