dream last night
Last night I had a dream, sort of a nightmare, where it was winter - very cold and had been below freezing for days. I woke up (in the dream) and remembered that I had forgotten to give fresh water to the goats for many days. Their water was frozen and they might be dead by now. I was moving to get up out of bed to bring them some water and then I woke up for real. I was so glad - my first thought was it is summer right now, thank goodness. Then I thought, oh - the goats are long gone and no longer my responsibility - I have no control over hurting or helping them anymore. But all day I am wondering - why did I have that dream? What part of myself am I forgetting to take care of? Why am I so stuck in this place of not doing anything productive. I am doing the dishes, I am washing the clothes, getting the garbage out, taking care of the grandkids when they are here but I can't seem to do anything else - nothing more than the bare minimum. Getting tired of being stuck here. Maybe the dream itself is about being stuck.