wednesday
I went to bed very early last night - 6:30. Felt so tired and had a headache. I had a meeting I could go to but decided to stay home and went to bed instead. Dave was in the living room watching TV and I wanted to talk to him about something but it seemed too difficult to walk out there so I called him on the phone. As we were talking I was thinking, this might be one of the best conversations we've had for a while. I should call him more often. Slept the night in hour-long chunks. Would wake up, look at the clock and fall back asleep. 5 am. Thought it would finally be a good time to get up.
Dreamed a dream where someone had contracted 2 women to paint my studio. My studio is chock full of stuff and the wall is covered with stuff. They had already moved furniture and taken everything down from the walls from half the room and painted it. In reality it is painted white and I like it that way. In the dream it was painted with splotches of all colors and they had roller painted over the splotches with white. One coat that didn't cover very well. Then they had taken white paint with a brush and painted Xs and Os in rows all over. I didn't like it. It was too busy. I thought they had taken the easy way out doing the Xs and Os instead of giving it a second roller coat. I was angry but didn't know how to tell them. They thought they were doing a good job. Finally I got up the nerve to ask who had contracted them to do this? Hazel. Then I told them that my room is already very "busy" with lots of stuff on the wall. I need a wall that is very plain and would they please paint it over again. They seemed agreeable. I started to help them take more things down from the wall. So the dream turned out well.
Another dream. I was in the grocery store and instead of getting a cart I used a cloth reusable bag with a handle to gather my groceries. This is something in reality that I have started to do if I am not buying much. I tried to explain to the manager in the dream that I wasn't stealing anything. I was just gathering it for checkout but he had me arrested and taken away to a holding room. I was there with about 4 other people sitting on benches against the wall. Mary Lou was one of them. I got the crackers in my bag out and started to share them with Mary Lou and the people in the room. I wondered if opening the box of crackers before I paid for it would go against me when I went to court but didn't care anymore.
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I started watching The Sinner (Cora) before I fell asleep last night. The actress who plays Cora looks just like Hazel's birth mother - it's uncanny, and unsettling.
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I'm feeling better this morning. Dave has a doctor appointment and then he's going to get a new rototiller so I think today will be a good day for me to take Rainy somewhere for a hike in the woods. Poor little thing hasn't been out much. I hate to waste these beautiful fall days by staying inside.
Dreamed a dream where someone had contracted 2 women to paint my studio. My studio is chock full of stuff and the wall is covered with stuff. They had already moved furniture and taken everything down from the walls from half the room and painted it. In reality it is painted white and I like it that way. In the dream it was painted with splotches of all colors and they had roller painted over the splotches with white. One coat that didn't cover very well. Then they had taken white paint with a brush and painted Xs and Os in rows all over. I didn't like it. It was too busy. I thought they had taken the easy way out doing the Xs and Os instead of giving it a second roller coat. I was angry but didn't know how to tell them. They thought they were doing a good job. Finally I got up the nerve to ask who had contracted them to do this? Hazel. Then I told them that my room is already very "busy" with lots of stuff on the wall. I need a wall that is very plain and would they please paint it over again. They seemed agreeable. I started to help them take more things down from the wall. So the dream turned out well.
Another dream. I was in the grocery store and instead of getting a cart I used a cloth reusable bag with a handle to gather my groceries. This is something in reality that I have started to do if I am not buying much. I tried to explain to the manager in the dream that I wasn't stealing anything. I was just gathering it for checkout but he had me arrested and taken away to a holding room. I was there with about 4 other people sitting on benches against the wall. Mary Lou was one of them. I got the crackers in my bag out and started to share them with Mary Lou and the people in the room. I wondered if opening the box of crackers before I paid for it would go against me when I went to court but didn't care anymore.
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I started watching The Sinner (Cora) before I fell asleep last night. The actress who plays Cora looks just like Hazel's birth mother - it's uncanny, and unsettling.
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I'm feeling better this morning. Dave has a doctor appointment and then he's going to get a new rototiller so I think today will be a good day for me to take Rainy somewhere for a hike in the woods. Poor little thing hasn't been out much. I hate to waste these beautiful fall days by staying inside.