sunday
The peony that grows under my studio window. I played with the picture in photoshop elements. Tried to recreate the orton effect - but I forgot how to do it. Maybe I succeeded, maybe I didn't - not sure.
Good morning Sunday. 7 am - I've been up since 4 - or 3 if you count just laying in bed tossing and turning.
I'm excited about taking a bike ride today. I'm just going to go up to the little Sugarcreek cemetery by myself - 3 miles away. It will be my first bike ride of this year.
My emotions seem to be all over the place anymore. Feeling fear of the future, excitement about today, overwhelmed, disappointing in myself, sad for losses, looking forward to summer things, intense love of the life I have.
I've gotten caught up in the "wanting" again. Now it is for a bike. But is seems it would be *crazy* to spend so much for a bike. Especially since I don't know yet if I will even have the energy to ride much this summer. Hopefully after writing about it here I will be able to let go of it for the rest of today. I actually have work to do - commissions. And Dave has started putting the chicken coop together - maybe I will be helping him with that. Last night we all got together (Johnny and his girlfriend Alison and her dad Michael, Chloe and her boyfriend Mike and Dave and me) and had dinner in Clarion. I got mother's day gifts of food (homemade cookies and spinach dip) from Alison and Johnny, a colored drawing of baby rabbits (I need to frame it) and a really nice wire egg collecting basket from Chloe and Mike.