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i was just thinking... i'm a believer in Maslow's whole theory about self-actualization. but even though self-actualization is on the top of the hierarchy of needs (the others, from top to bottom, are survival, security, social acceptance, self-esteem), i think its just as important as the others. and i guess the other layers of the hierarchy/pyramid (click here if you want to see what i mean) must be in place cause i'm always feeling that the lack of self-actualization is the root of my problems. like.. tonight i went to the gym and then went to practice for a bit... so i guess that's better than nothing. but i didn't work as hard as i could've in either activity and thus feel somewhat of a void... and somehow its like i cant remember the last time i really didn't feel this way. i can't remember the last time i went to bed thinking that i've accomplished everything i wanted to during the day and wasn't thinking oh i wish i practiced/exercised/caught up on reading/worked on composition/wrote some new songs/etc. but i guess i shouldn't be too upset by this because according to this website i just checked out randomly, Maslow says that only about 1% of the population is self-actualized. but i wish there was some easy way to up the self-actualization quotient (is quotient even the right word there?? oh well). maybe i should start making a list of things to do more often *shrug*

i'm obsessed with Sarah Harmer's song Dandelions in Bullet Holes. not so much for the lyrics, which are interesting... but melodically its just so gorgeous (esp. the chorus).. the melody has been stuck in my head all night. go to the site (link in previous post) and listen to it :P