this is what happens when you give your heart away so freely
life has somehow gotten so wretched these days.
no more. no more problems, no more troubles, no more worries, no more pining. i don't want to hurt you any further. sunday night scared me. i have never witnessed a grown man cry so bitterly in my entire life. i heard the sound of his heart breaking. it was more chilling than glass, more brittle than eggshells, sharper than a dagger, and yet my heart breathed its last before his did.
have you ever cried so hard it feels like your head's either about to cave in or burst out? like nothing in the world matters anymore. your breathing is short and rapid, and you're gasping for breath like you're drowning. drowning in a goldfish bowl, in a world of suffocation and low oxygen levels. you're more than overwhelmed. you're struggling for air in an oxygen-deprived world, where everyone's face is blue and blood no longer flows.
never have i felt so betrayed, so hurt, so angry, so frustrated, so sad. and i can no longer face you.
i don't know how she can take my trust, manipulate my faith and destroy her friends who have known her since she was four.