no i can't fucking stand it when you're around.
Hi, i wonder how much livejournal will allow me to write in just one entry. I'm sure there is no limit so i'm just going to write until i get tired of telling people about my life.
School has been getting a little crazy. I have three days of classes left, then my finals start, then I'm done on May 8th. It's so soon and I'm so excited, but nonetheless I have an ass load of work to do before then. I'm not coming home for the next two weeks, which sucks, but it will help me concentrate on writing the seven papers that I have to write and studying for all my finals. I did much better this semester, which kind of puts me at ease in this crazy time period hah. I'm still not talking to my two roommates, which is probably the best decision i've ever made. I realized what type of person I turned into when I was with elyse and look back I didn't really like it. I just have to stick out living with them for two weeks then I izzz. And, since I sat back and let them be cunts for the past month and a half I decided that its my turn to be a little bit bitchy myself. They don't listen to my music, but I do, and loud. I also like to slam things in the middle of the night because I'm not much of a sleeper. It's my turn.
So my antenna on my phone broke and I pretty much have no service anywhere. My myspace was also crazy hacked and I had to delete it and make a new one. It's a fresh start I guess, but all my friends now are pretty much guys that drive big trucks. I like it better. I also want to dye my hair blonde.
I've been having more money than usual lately.
Last year I started hanging out with everyone permanently and they're pretty much still the most awesome friends I've ever had.
Also, before I left for school, well a little before that, I made the mistake of falling for one of my best friends. Well, I'm still not sure if I can classify it as a mistake, but I know it did put me through a lot of stress and pretty much drove me crazy for a long while. We got very close to the point where we talked every day for over an hour on the phone and did our thing when we saw each other. No one out of our friends knew about us except my two biffs and everything was going good. It just got to the point where we got annoyed with each other a little too much and it sucks that we couldn't make what we had work. Turns out he is seeing someone else now and last weekend we had a little talk about it and I realized he never really cared the way he said he did. It's not that he said it, but I'm a girl, I notice these things and right now i'm pretty thankful that I didn't do what I wanted to with him.
But after this talk I got really mad, and I'm sorry for not being the life of the party after that(to my friends), but as I said, after this talk I just realized all the shit I put myself through to please someone else. That's the type of person I never wanted to be. I have always done things because its who I am, but oops, I slipped up and tried to hard to be someone for someone else.
Turns out he really likes this new girl he's seeing and saturday night when she was mad at him and stupid drunk and not speaking to him, I was the bigger person and made things right between them. I went out of my way for my best friend and his feelings and thats the type of person that I always used to be. I was happy to see myself back. I'm not going to lie, it sucked for a long time to watch him kiss someone else in front of me, but at the same time I couldn't let it show because no one knew that we had something for a while. Well, sooner or later everyone found out haha. Not my fault. But, I've come to be myself again in is absence and I like the way things are. And I know when I see them in front of me I'm going to just look right through it and entertain other people instead of dwelling on the nastyness and being down all night.
Well, my point through all this aimless rambling is no one ever knew the true way I felt about him and it was a big deal but I may not have moved on from it, but just like I told him, I got used to him dicking me over and I turned out okay. Now I can go out and do my own thing with other guys and maybe find out that I like someone else a little bit more. Doubt it, but its worth a try and now I know that he won't be breathing down my back every moment of the day. It's like a little bit of freedom I guess.
Don't get me wrong I totally still hang out with him and he's still my best friend, but now we have a little past and maybe that's a good thing.
I'm really excited to go to north carolina at the end of may and when I come back I have to house to myself because my parents will still be down there. I'm souped haha.
So I finally decided that I want to give up my dream of forensics. Yep, I'm too lazy and sometimes a little too stupid ha. I'm going to do journalism because well I really like to write and I think I want to write books for the rest of my life. I want to be one of those successful writers that pretty much hits it large with one book. Just so I can be like a mailman to fill up my freetime instead of getting like a crazy hard job. I've also decided that I really enjoy anthropoloy and pretty much plan on studying it until I graduate.
Well, I miss soccer and lacrosse a lot. I pretty much gave up two things that I have a lot of passion for and had the oppurtunity to go a long way with. When I get a little bit of money saved up I'm going to pull together some friends try to start up an night indoor league because I proabably couldn't spend the rest of my life not playing.
I just got done reading a really good book called On the Road. I think I want to travel the world. Hiiiiii. haha
I should really be writing one of the seven papers that I have to write but like usual I'm procrastinating hah. I'm good at it though, so it's okay I can postpone this for another day I guess.
I really need a new phone. I want to go to sleep.
I thought I could write more than this, but it turns out I really have nothing else that I want to say.
School has been getting a little crazy. I have three days of classes left, then my finals start, then I'm done on May 8th. It's so soon and I'm so excited, but nonetheless I have an ass load of work to do before then. I'm not coming home for the next two weeks, which sucks, but it will help me concentrate on writing the seven papers that I have to write and studying for all my finals. I did much better this semester, which kind of puts me at ease in this crazy time period hah. I'm still not talking to my two roommates, which is probably the best decision i've ever made. I realized what type of person I turned into when I was with elyse and look back I didn't really like it. I just have to stick out living with them for two weeks then I izzz. And, since I sat back and let them be cunts for the past month and a half I decided that its my turn to be a little bit bitchy myself. They don't listen to my music, but I do, and loud. I also like to slam things in the middle of the night because I'm not much of a sleeper. It's my turn.
So my antenna on my phone broke and I pretty much have no service anywhere. My myspace was also crazy hacked and I had to delete it and make a new one. It's a fresh start I guess, but all my friends now are pretty much guys that drive big trucks. I like it better. I also want to dye my hair blonde.
I've been having more money than usual lately.
Last year I started hanging out with everyone permanently and they're pretty much still the most awesome friends I've ever had.
Also, before I left for school, well a little before that, I made the mistake of falling for one of my best friends. Well, I'm still not sure if I can classify it as a mistake, but I know it did put me through a lot of stress and pretty much drove me crazy for a long while. We got very close to the point where we talked every day for over an hour on the phone and did our thing when we saw each other. No one out of our friends knew about us except my two biffs and everything was going good. It just got to the point where we got annoyed with each other a little too much and it sucks that we couldn't make what we had work. Turns out he is seeing someone else now and last weekend we had a little talk about it and I realized he never really cared the way he said he did. It's not that he said it, but I'm a girl, I notice these things and right now i'm pretty thankful that I didn't do what I wanted to with him.
But after this talk I got really mad, and I'm sorry for not being the life of the party after that(to my friends), but as I said, after this talk I just realized all the shit I put myself through to please someone else. That's the type of person I never wanted to be. I have always done things because its who I am, but oops, I slipped up and tried to hard to be someone for someone else.
Turns out he really likes this new girl he's seeing and saturday night when she was mad at him and stupid drunk and not speaking to him, I was the bigger person and made things right between them. I went out of my way for my best friend and his feelings and thats the type of person that I always used to be. I was happy to see myself back. I'm not going to lie, it sucked for a long time to watch him kiss someone else in front of me, but at the same time I couldn't let it show because no one knew that we had something for a while. Well, sooner or later everyone found out haha. Not my fault. But, I've come to be myself again in is absence and I like the way things are. And I know when I see them in front of me I'm going to just look right through it and entertain other people instead of dwelling on the nastyness and being down all night.
Well, my point through all this aimless rambling is no one ever knew the true way I felt about him and it was a big deal but I may not have moved on from it, but just like I told him, I got used to him dicking me over and I turned out okay. Now I can go out and do my own thing with other guys and maybe find out that I like someone else a little bit more. Doubt it, but its worth a try and now I know that he won't be breathing down my back every moment of the day. It's like a little bit of freedom I guess.
Don't get me wrong I totally still hang out with him and he's still my best friend, but now we have a little past and maybe that's a good thing.
I'm really excited to go to north carolina at the end of may and when I come back I have to house to myself because my parents will still be down there. I'm souped haha.
So I finally decided that I want to give up my dream of forensics. Yep, I'm too lazy and sometimes a little too stupid ha. I'm going to do journalism because well I really like to write and I think I want to write books for the rest of my life. I want to be one of those successful writers that pretty much hits it large with one book. Just so I can be like a mailman to fill up my freetime instead of getting like a crazy hard job. I've also decided that I really enjoy anthropoloy and pretty much plan on studying it until I graduate.
Well, I miss soccer and lacrosse a lot. I pretty much gave up two things that I have a lot of passion for and had the oppurtunity to go a long way with. When I get a little bit of money saved up I'm going to pull together some friends try to start up an night indoor league because I proabably couldn't spend the rest of my life not playing.
I just got done reading a really good book called On the Road. I think I want to travel the world. Hiiiiii. haha
I should really be writing one of the seven papers that I have to write but like usual I'm procrastinating hah. I'm good at it though, so it's okay I can postpone this for another day I guess.
I really need a new phone. I want to go to sleep.
I thought I could write more than this, but it turns out I really have nothing else that I want to say.