Frustrated Overwhelmed. Confused. and Tired.
I am frustrated because I am not really going anywhere right now. I need some change. Don't get me wrong, I like where I am now. But I need some change.
I am overwhelmed because I said that I would get a costume done by Sakuracon and I am kinda in a funk right now. I am not feeling over-creative. I am angry at my sewing room and I havent ever sewed anything like this before. So I am overwhelmed by that.
I am confused about a certain guy. I mean seriously when have I never not been confused by some guy. This one is different from the rest. This one seriously has me lost. I have no idea what is going on or what could be going on or what will or might be going on. Blahhh.
I am tired because I don't get much sleep lately. Not so much by choice. But I don't get tired until way late. But then I have to wake up early to either take people home or to go to class, or to meet u with people. I am not complaining about doing all that. I like doing those things. I just don't get any sleep anymore.
So enough bitching for today.
PS. Lately I have been having really strange evil thoughts. Like I am somewhere doing something and just have this idea in my head of doing something off the wall. Example: I was at the doctors scheduling another check-up and then the thought of jumping over the table and tackling the receptionist... just came into my head. Then sometimes I just want to drive through red lights just to see how people would react. And I just want to go up to someone and kiss them.
I never act out on these thoughts but they come into my head and they are so strong that I have to sometimes hold myself back from thinking about them too much because I am afraid I will do them. So I have no idea what the fuck this all means. Maybe its just more of the "I need change in my life right now" kinda thing.
But anyways I have to meet Mariah at the china wok in like 10 mins. So I should get going.
<3 most of you. :/
I am overwhelmed because I said that I would get a costume done by Sakuracon and I am kinda in a funk right now. I am not feeling over-creative. I am angry at my sewing room and I havent ever sewed anything like this before. So I am overwhelmed by that.
I am confused about a certain guy. I mean seriously when have I never not been confused by some guy. This one is different from the rest. This one seriously has me lost. I have no idea what is going on or what could be going on or what will or might be going on. Blahhh.
I am tired because I don't get much sleep lately. Not so much by choice. But I don't get tired until way late. But then I have to wake up early to either take people home or to go to class, or to meet u with people. I am not complaining about doing all that. I like doing those things. I just don't get any sleep anymore.
So enough bitching for today.
PS. Lately I have been having really strange evil thoughts. Like I am somewhere doing something and just have this idea in my head of doing something off the wall. Example: I was at the doctors scheduling another check-up and then the thought of jumping over the table and tackling the receptionist... just came into my head. Then sometimes I just want to drive through red lights just to see how people would react. And I just want to go up to someone and kiss them.
I never act out on these thoughts but they come into my head and they are so strong that I have to sometimes hold myself back from thinking about them too much because I am afraid I will do them. So I have no idea what the fuck this all means. Maybe its just more of the "I need change in my life right now" kinda thing.
But anyways I have to meet Mariah at the china wok in like 10 mins. So I should get going.
<3 most of you. :/