i miss klpr.
Why am I so cold? I am wearing 2 shirts, 2 sweaters, boxers, pajama pants and I am wrapped in a blanket. I am up late again with a head full of thoughts and not a glimpse of sleepiness in sight. I try to distract my mind with music, tv, video game and solitaire... nothing works. Why do I get like this? Why cant I just function normally...if there is such a thing.
Other than my recent lapse into extreme insomnia.... Life is good. I am finally in a place where I am happy. Employment right now would make this even better. I have a great set of friends. I am getting places with my art. Making some money making clothing for people. Working at some photo shoots. More bronze sculptures. One thing I would really like to get back into is playing guitar. I got a beautiful one for Christmas. Yet I never play it. I need to get back into that. I want to play out a few ideas that I have for costumes. I have my test-subject. Tall, dark and handsome. How much better can you get.
Oh and another thing. Lately I have been thinking of a lot of "what ifs" when it comes to a certain person. Like what would have happened if I told him how I felt. What would have happened if I had spoke up. What would have happened if I kissed him that one night. What would have happened? Would he have stayed? Would I have been able to save him from himself? Would I have been that 'one' he always talks about? Is he my 'unintended'?
Blah anyways I need to force myself to sleep now. Yay for pills!
Other than my recent lapse into extreme insomnia.... Life is good. I am finally in a place where I am happy. Employment right now would make this even better. I have a great set of friends. I am getting places with my art. Making some money making clothing for people. Working at some photo shoots. More bronze sculptures. One thing I would really like to get back into is playing guitar. I got a beautiful one for Christmas. Yet I never play it. I need to get back into that. I want to play out a few ideas that I have for costumes. I have my test-subject. Tall, dark and handsome. How much better can you get.
Oh and another thing. Lately I have been thinking of a lot of "what ifs" when it comes to a certain person. Like what would have happened if I told him how I felt. What would have happened if I had spoke up. What would have happened if I kissed him that one night. What would have happened? Would he have stayed? Would I have been able to save him from himself? Would I have been that 'one' he always talks about? Is he my 'unintended'?
Blah anyways I need to force myself to sleep now. Yay for pills!