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[edukator]

So. I don't really feel like I can talk about it on here but it's over. And I'm sorry. It was actually harder than I thought it would be and I completely freaked out trying to do it. But true to form Liam, you stayed as nice as you always are and made it easier for me. Even though you shouldn't have

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[youwantbeef]

I wish you could come stay with me, it hurts me to see you upset like this and this may sound like i'm bragging but i feel it helps you to talk to me, well that is the idea i get anyway from when we do talk. Plus it is the way i feel when i'm talking to you as it does help me hugely.
From what you said about messing up after a year, is this because we spoke about it and went really deep into it? I'm really worried that I was a cause for you to do that to yourself.
I understand talking about it beings it back up to the surface and sometimes it is unbearable and it seems like there is no other way to cope and deal with those feelings, but there is Moo, I'm not going to stomp on it and tell you to stop because that just doesn't work, I am here for you though and I hope you know that.
Friends often do drift away, it is a part of life i suppose and it is not nice, but they will always be a part of you..and this really sounds like a Pocohonatas moment but i feel that those special people never leave you, I only think like this because I couldn't bear it any other way, each person has to have something to hold onto other wise they would just break down completely. omg I am rambaling on and i am sorry.
talk to me whenever you want my lovely Moo.
xx

[edukator]

Aww, fanx Kay innit. I guess everyone who comes into your life is there for a reason and when its their time to go, they go...leaving you with whatever they gave you. And of course talking to you helps, it's not bragging. And don't feel bad 'cause we talked about stuff, I think that may be a small part of it...but in truth I've been feeling some of the worst I've felt in ages this week. Especially last night after I got off the phone, big fight with the bitch.