I'm walking out, without you.
We're all scared of the future...I've got a taste for blood. Leave the weak, leave the young. I've got a taste for blood - I'm walking out without you. Start killing or be killed, it's about progress. I've got a taste for blood...We make plans for big times. Get bogged down, distracted. We make plans for good times, if only on the surface. So kiss me before it all gets complicated. I've got a taste for blood.
Me and Aaron had our first big fight on Monday. It would probaby take too long to epxlain what about, because it's not even clear to me. Apparently we don't spend enough time alone together. He rally was grasping at straws. That was the first evening where we didn't spend time alone because Charley needed somewhere to be so she came home with me. I was just trying to help her out. But apparently one evening not being alone when he thought we were going to be was too much for Aaron. Look at me explaining when I said I wouldn't...
We began walking home in silence but he apologised and everything was fine again. Until we got so near my house where I began to wind him up about...something and he just walked off without saying good bye. Fair enough I deserved it, because I was purposefully winding him up. But he was being ridiculously moody. We made up that evening though and spent "quality time" alone together on Tuesday. We almost had a fight again today though. He is a puzzler.
I've grown crueller, since I met you.
I am so excited about going to see Arctic Monkeys tomorrow. Drunken dancing, here I come! And then I get to see We Are Scientists and Editors on Monday. It's all quite wonderful.
I court trouble as if I like it. I'm starting to think I must. Something inside of me must think a complication-free life would be boring. All I can say is I hope it goes on holiday soon. I can't keep messing other people round and hurting them, just because I'm hellbent on self-destruction. All I think I do is substitute one kind of pain for another.
I know, my love, this is not the only story you can tell. This pain won't last forever.