GOODBYE MY LOVE...SWEET RIDDENS
I'M ALRIGHT. I'M ALRIGHT. IT ONLY HURTS WHEN I BREATHE =(
HOLY FUCKING WOW. HAD A HORRIBLE WEEK AND I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT. I LOST THE ONLY LOVE I'VE EVER KNOWN ANDDDDD MY BEST FRIEND, ALL WITHIN THE SAME HALF HOUR OR SO. LIFE JUST FUCKING SUCKS. I HAVENT CRIED YET. IM WORRIED. SOMETHING'S TERRIBLY WRONG WITH ME. OR MAYBE, EVERYTHING'S RIGHT? I JUST HATE THIS. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I HAVE TO DROP EVERY GOOD THING IN MY LIFE TO MAKE HER HAPPY, WHILE SIT AND CRY ALONE IN THE DARK, PRETENDING IM NOT HURTING. BUT I REFUSE TO DO THIS ANYMORE. YOU CAN'T FORCE SOMEONE TO BE YOUR FRIEND. I DONNO, MY LIFE IS SO OUT OF WHACK. THE BRIGHT SIDE: I HAVE A NEW BOY, WHO WOULD DROP EVERYTHING IN A HEARTBEAT TO SPEND 5 MINUTES WITH ME. SO I GUESS YOU COULD SAY THINGS ARE STARTING TO BALANCE OUT. IM JUST HOPING HE WONT KILL WHATEVER HEART I HAVE LEFT. AND PLUS, I HAVE JENN, WHOM I LOVE SOOOOO MUCH, WHO DOESNT TREAT ME LIKE THE CRAP WE ALL SHIT OUT OUR ASS. AND I HAVENT KILLED MYSELF YET, SO HEY MAYBE THINGS WONT TURN OUT SO BAD AFTER ALL. WHATEVER, FUCK EVERYTHING. HERE'S A SONG FOR YOU KNOW WHO:
Never look back, we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Lonliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?
And you didn't hear all my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears, did you now?
Still I miss you somehow...
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love
I never knew love til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart...
Baby, I said, please stay
Give our love a chance for one more day
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about
But you put a dart through my dreams, through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end...
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love
I never knew love til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart...
You promised yourself, but to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear, yeah
Still I wish you were here now...
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing - a thing or two you gotta know
You were my first love - first love
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love - you were my real love
I never knew love til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart...
Never look back, we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
HOLY FUCKING WOW. HAD A HORRIBLE WEEK AND I DON'T WANNA TALK ABOUT IT. I LOST THE ONLY LOVE I'VE EVER KNOWN ANDDDDD MY BEST FRIEND, ALL WITHIN THE SAME HALF HOUR OR SO. LIFE JUST FUCKING SUCKS. I HAVENT CRIED YET. IM WORRIED. SOMETHING'S TERRIBLY WRONG WITH ME. OR MAYBE, EVERYTHING'S RIGHT? I JUST HATE THIS. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I HAVE TO DROP EVERY GOOD THING IN MY LIFE TO MAKE HER HAPPY, WHILE SIT AND CRY ALONE IN THE DARK, PRETENDING IM NOT HURTING. BUT I REFUSE TO DO THIS ANYMORE. YOU CAN'T FORCE SOMEONE TO BE YOUR FRIEND. I DONNO, MY LIFE IS SO OUT OF WHACK. THE BRIGHT SIDE: I HAVE A NEW BOY, WHO WOULD DROP EVERYTHING IN A HEARTBEAT TO SPEND 5 MINUTES WITH ME. SO I GUESS YOU COULD SAY THINGS ARE STARTING TO BALANCE OUT. IM JUST HOPING HE WONT KILL WHATEVER HEART I HAVE LEFT. AND PLUS, I HAVE JENN, WHOM I LOVE SOOOOO MUCH, WHO DOESNT TREAT ME LIKE THE CRAP WE ALL SHIT OUT OUR ASS. AND I HAVENT KILLED MYSELF YET, SO HEY MAYBE THINGS WONT TURN OUT SO BAD AFTER ALL. WHATEVER, FUCK EVERYTHING. HERE'S A SONG FOR YOU KNOW WHO:
Never look back, we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Lonliness up ahead, emptiness behind
Where do I go?
And you didn't hear all my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears, did you now?
Still I miss you somehow...
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love
I never knew love til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart...
Baby, I said, please stay
Give our love a chance for one more day
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about
But you put a dart through my dreams, through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end...
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love
I never knew love til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart...
You promised yourself, but to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear, yeah
Still I wish you were here now...
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing - a thing or two you gotta know
You were my first love - first love
You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love - you were my real love
I never knew love til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart...
Never look back, we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?