your eyes must do some raining if you're ever gonna grow
Time may take us apart
But I will still love you, I promise...
wow..i havent updated in so long. i don't even know where we left off. but anyways...well these past 2 weeks have definitely sucked huge monkey balls. you all probably know what happened, and i don't feel like talking about it, so we'll move on. --- this past weekend. oh oh, let me just tell you how it was supposed to be the best weekend of my life. and it was supposedly going to make up for my shitty week. well..sat night, jenn came and got me. we went and got wendy's and drove around for a while with nothing to do. then we decided to go to some party on labarre. and yeah, right when we get to labarre, we're crossing metairie road and what happens? some freaking old couple slammed into the side of jenn's car, and now it's all fucked up. well, turns out the guy's my neighbor. i was like oh cool, this is grand. well he didn't recognize me so i said nothing. so this basically ruined our entire night, we had to sit out there for like 2 hours before we could leave. so we finally left, plans were ruined, so we went and rented some movies, and i was feeling sick- i had a horrible migraine, felt like i was going to start projectile vomiting, and all i wanted to do was sleep. so i passed out a few times, and i thought maybe something was wrong, but i figured it was nothing cause hey, it's just whiplash right? it's not like im dying? so katy came over, we watched A CINDERELLA STORY, aww it was so cute! went to bed around 3 something. woke up, felt fine. went home, told mom and dad everything that happened. they flipped out and checked me to make sure nothing was wrong, but all i had was this constant headache and dizzyness. we just figured it was stress. well i woke up monday morning, feeling quite shitty. my mom begged me not to go to school, but i went anyway b/c i've already missed so much shit, i can't afford to miss anymore. so around lunch, i started hurting really bad, in my shoulders and my chest. and that headache just kept getting worse, to the point where i could barely see or stand up by myself. so mom came and got me, and i nearly passed out walking to the car. so she drove me to the hospital, i had a shitload of tests done, and they doped me up and put me to bed. came home i dont even know how many days later? i dont even know what today is? but coming home was a nightmare. i couldnt stay awake long enough to eat, so i was constantly feeling sick and hungry. the first few days, i was confined to the sofa. when i was finally able to get up and move around, i realized "hey your an idiot, its too painful to move you fool" so i cried, and loaded up on meds, and slept again. -pause- question time! yayyy... so, id like to know..do you guys ever make deals with God? and is that wrong, will i go to hell for it? ya know like "okay well i promise ill give up THIS, if you only let me have THAT" well, i do. so when i woke up yesterday, i decided i was gonna call finnan for the last and final time, and if he never called me again, id be satisfied. (well we all know thats not true) so i called, and waited to leave an hour long message on his machine, but he picked up. i was in awe. i was so shocked, i didnt know what to say. so i dropped all the drama, and told him about the accident. he said he felt bad he couldnt have been there for me, and he sounded like he was dying, hes really sick. so my heart melted and i forgave him. funny, cause i dont even remember an apology? so we just caught up on things, as if nothing had happened. now, if this were anyone else, id kick his/her ass for ignoring me for a whole 2 weeks, and vow to never forgive them. but hey, this is finnan! what am i supposed to do? ::sighs:: im hopeless. but i dont care. things are actually normal now. i think maybe i should just pretend like this never happened, because these past two weeks have been 2 of the most painful weeks of my life..both emotionally and physically. thank god its over, and he's still here. its so funny, how ONE single phone call can change a person's whole perspective on life & make them grateful for what they have, because one day you could lose it...FOREVER... anywho, im glad everything worked out, now all i have to do is keep it this way. soo hmm..today i went to the doctors to get x-rays and such. and i am now the proud owner of a sling. oh joy! but actually, it does help so i'm not complaining. but next week, i have to go meet some therapist, and i have to go through a couple months of physical therapy at least 3x a week, because my shoulder is so messed up, and i have barely any movement in it. so yeah, we'll see how that goes. ......looks like im not doing much of anything this weekend. oh and this should be good, this is the first year im missing halloween. =[ *tears* so if any of you guys arent out there partying till 3 in the morning, hit me up and we can watch scary movies at my house. lol well this is taking me so long to type since i only have one arm to work with. so im gonna go soak in a bubble bath and call finni and jenn, see if either of those cool kids wanna visit me this weekend. toodles! <3
ya know what, i just done care anymore... HOLDING ON MAY HURT ME, BUT LETTING GO WOULD KILL ME! .. i love you.i love you.i love you.
***oh and i found these..read them, their funny....
Warnings...
On Sears hairdryer: Do not use while sleeping. (Gee, that's the only time I have to work on my hair!)
On a bag of Fritos: You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside. (The shoplifter special!)
On a bar of Dial soap: Directions: Use like regular soap. (and that would be how?)
On some Swann frozen dinners: Serving suggestion: Defrost. (But it's *just* a suggestion!)
On a hotel provided shower cap in a box: Fits one head.
On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom of the box): Do not turn upside down. (Too late! You lose!) (I love it: food to piss you off.)
On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: Product will be hot after heating. (Are you sure??? )
On packaging for a Rowenta iron: Do not iron clothes on body. (But wouldn't that save more time?)
On Boot's Children's cough medicine: Do not drive car or operate machinery. (We could do a lot to reduce the rate of construction accidents if we just kept those 5 year old off those fork lifts.)
On Nytol sleep aid: Warning: may cause drowsiness. (You think?!)
On a string of Chinese-made Christmas lights: For indoor or outdoor use only. (Can you use them underground?)
On a Japanese food processor: Not to be used for the other use. (the other use???.)
On an American Airlines packet of nuts: Instructions: open packet, eat nuts. (Thanks for the instructions!! :D)
On a Swedish chain saw: Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands or genitals. (now you tell me!!!)
On a childs' superman costume: Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly. (That's right, destroy a universal childhood fantasy!)