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It's so loud inside my head
With words that I should have said
And as I drown in my regrets
I can't take back the words I never said
Kept coming back, typing and retyping, hoping to find the right words but always falling short. I'll try though.
Everything seems to be a blur nowadays, memories don't seem to be clear anymore. Days just seem to pass by like the traffic, rapid and insignificant. And the oh-so-familiar feeling of tiredness which sets in every single time I sit on this chair.
Life's beginning to feel more like a chore with every passing day. Can barely recall a time where I woke up feeling good about the day, without having to worry about getting any work done, without having to face up to any expectations. Expectations from teachers, parents and myself. Expectations of achieving greater things, things which honestly, I never thought of at all.
Sometimes, I just want to blend into the surroundings, to be part of everything and at the same time, part of nothing. None of this craziness, attention and dullness.
With words that I should have said
And as I drown in my regrets
I can't take back the words I never said
Kept coming back, typing and retyping, hoping to find the right words but always falling short. I'll try though.
Everything seems to be a blur nowadays, memories don't seem to be clear anymore. Days just seem to pass by like the traffic, rapid and insignificant. And the oh-so-familiar feeling of tiredness which sets in every single time I sit on this chair.
Life's beginning to feel more like a chore with every passing day. Can barely recall a time where I woke up feeling good about the day, without having to worry about getting any work done, without having to face up to any expectations. Expectations from teachers, parents and myself. Expectations of achieving greater things, things which honestly, I never thought of at all.
Sometimes, I just want to blend into the surroundings, to be part of everything and at the same time, part of nothing. None of this craziness, attention and dullness.