No More Work
I started working today (8-5 so if you don't see me on as much you know why) and I'm exhausted. I hated it. I'm working at an office where I worked 3 years until last year. I hate this job...I forgot how much I hated doing office work. The girls I work with are great! But I hate the work. It did remind me why I was in school though...so that I didn't have to do this the rest of my life. Nothing wrong with being a secretary, but it's just not for me. I can't wait to work with kids.
I come home to homework (as well as, work on it on my lunch break). I have no idea how I'm going to finish these classes. I leave for England/Scotland in 3 weeks and I need to have everything done before that. I don't have time for anything now!!!
I feel like there's nothing I do for myself or anyone else anymore. I have always found my meaning in life by helping others...with everything bogged down on me like it is now, I don't even have time to do that. I miss that part of my life!! I truly get my joy from making others lives happier.
I also miss Mandy like no other but I just keep thinking if I write her it's not going to help her heal (physically) cuz she'll get stressed. That and I feel like my asking to talk to her more is being too needy. I never want to upset her and I'm just scared to talk to her about it. I don't know how to say what I want to say to her. I can write it but I can't call her like I'd like to because I get way too nervous over the phone. When I went to tell mom on the phone about me and Aaron dating I seriously wrote out a list of topics so I wouldn't sit silently (then of course I left that as the last topic though I had opportunity 5X). I'm such a chicken!
Is work over yet? I can't wait for my 10 day break. Though maybe I'll go into work for a few hours that Friday morning. And really it's only 5 days break because unless I skip Fri 18 it's only 5 work days. Still...it'll be nice. And this Monday I don't have to work which I hadn't thought of. That's nice :) Leah...tell Kaylee that she should come tom!!! Then I could be there Fri-Mon! That'd mean cancellin on u...sorry Aaron...but we can do the movie the next weekend after Relay for Life! Leah...I'm so excited for you. Your daughter is going to be gorgeous just like you. She won't look a thing like Daniel (Leah's ex is Daniel too everyone just in case you were confused...yet another thing we have in common). Leah, I can't wait to meet you. I love havin you as a part of AOL. You are one of the greatest friends I have both on and off board. Thanks for always supporting me...especially on days like today. Love you girl! Today Eden is 8 months old...time passes quickly! Don't blink Leah...treasure every moment you have. Seems not too long ago i was pregnant and rubbin that precious belly of mine. Girl...you've brought back so many good memories for me...thank you for that. I love you!
I come home to homework (as well as, work on it on my lunch break). I have no idea how I'm going to finish these classes. I leave for England/Scotland in 3 weeks and I need to have everything done before that. I don't have time for anything now!!!
I feel like there's nothing I do for myself or anyone else anymore. I have always found my meaning in life by helping others...with everything bogged down on me like it is now, I don't even have time to do that. I miss that part of my life!! I truly get my joy from making others lives happier.
I also miss Mandy like no other but I just keep thinking if I write her it's not going to help her heal (physically) cuz she'll get stressed. That and I feel like my asking to talk to her more is being too needy. I never want to upset her and I'm just scared to talk to her about it. I don't know how to say what I want to say to her. I can write it but I can't call her like I'd like to because I get way too nervous over the phone. When I went to tell mom on the phone about me and Aaron dating I seriously wrote out a list of topics so I wouldn't sit silently (then of course I left that as the last topic though I had opportunity 5X). I'm such a chicken!
Is work over yet? I can't wait for my 10 day break. Though maybe I'll go into work for a few hours that Friday morning. And really it's only 5 days break because unless I skip Fri 18 it's only 5 work days. Still...it'll be nice. And this Monday I don't have to work which I hadn't thought of. That's nice :) Leah...tell Kaylee that she should come tom!!! Then I could be there Fri-Mon! That'd mean cancellin on u...sorry Aaron...but we can do the movie the next weekend after Relay for Life! Leah...I'm so excited for you. Your daughter is going to be gorgeous just like you. She won't look a thing like Daniel (Leah's ex is Daniel too everyone just in case you were confused...yet another thing we have in common). Leah, I can't wait to meet you. I love havin you as a part of AOL. You are one of the greatest friends I have both on and off board. Thanks for always supporting me...especially on days like today. Love you girl! Today Eden is 8 months old...time passes quickly! Don't blink Leah...treasure every moment you have. Seems not too long ago i was pregnant and rubbin that precious belly of mine. Girl...you've brought back so many good memories for me...thank you for that. I love you!