May 31, 2004 15:50
The other day the painters were here - yeah our house is still getting worked on, go figure - and their daughters were with him. They'd been there the day before as well. I had my door open and was laying on my bed trying to nap. They came in so I turned over and talked to them. They were lookin at the pic Mandy gave me of Eden for Christmas and asked who it was. I told them it was my daughter. They said does she live here with you? Well this was the second day they'd seen me that I didn't have her with me nor was their baby stuff around. So where they thought I hid her I have no idea ;) I told them no, she was adopted. The oldest who was 9 or 10 said "That's sad." I wanted to say something to her but I didn't. It's not her fault that her parents and society teaches people that adoption is a bad word. I am so sick of that mentality. I ended up turning on the tv and leaving. I couldn't stay in the house cuz I was just getting upset. Adoption's a gift from god. In my opinion, adopted children are sometimes even more blessed than a natural child. Adopted children have more love than some can imagine. Like a little kid once said when someone asked how he felt about his birthfamily being at his birthday party: "It's great! I have more people that love me and even more presents!" Haha...little kids are so much smarter than adults. Boy there was a rant for you ;) I've been talkin about John and my relationship with Mandy a lot. John and I have always had a tougher time connecting - it's cuz he's a guy...silly boys! hehe. I'm so glad that John's her dad. He's the best father ever! Daniel may be her paternal father, but he doesn't even begin to have the love for her that John does. I love watching John with her. Takes my breath away every day. I can't wait til I'm married and can watch my husband with my kids. John is so great with her and I love all that he does for her. Here I go crying again ;) Leave it to me. I'm so grateful that Mandy and John have let me be a part of her life. I realize that they don't have to. And I'm so blessed that I do have that. Because I wouldn't just miss her; I'd miss the both of them. I fell in love with John and Mandy last year. They became family to me as Eden grew inside of me. I'm so blessed that I have the both of them in my life. Mandy, John, Eden...I love you all and hope to see you soon!
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