Wearing White
So especially after visiting with Leah I've been thinking a lot about the guys I date and getting married. Having to explain that I have a daughter is a big enough task...but explaining she's adopted AND still a HUGE part of my life...even more difficult. I've been lucky with Aaron. I didn't have to explain because he already knew. He was there for all of it. But if I ever date another guy, that won't be the case. And even Aaron has never really been around Eden so who knows how he really feels on all that. Anyways, I'm so sick of others judging me for being a birthmother. People seem to think I should either raise her or let her be adopted and stay out of her life and let Mandy and John be her parents without being in the way. Sometimes, I begin to feel like maybe they're right.
Anyways, I was listening to ITunes on random again today. Up came the song "Wearing White" by Martina McBride. I can only hope that my future husband understands my relationship with Eden and doesn't feel intimidated by it. Also, I hope that he can forgive me for my past. Having sex was a mistake that I regret....but I wouldn't ever take it back because it's changed my life by giving me a beautiful angel in my life. It's changed my path in life in a way I'm not sure could have happened had I not made this mistake. God has definitely changed all this into good. I hope that on my wedding day, my husband is just like the guy in this song. Wearing White
She'll be wearing white
Phones were ringing
Tongues were wagging
Hot gossip was flying
All around town
She heard the talk
The lowdown was
The shameless color of
Her wedding gown
It's white
I mean really who's she trying to kid
Everybody knows the things she did
It just isn't right
Won't that be a sight
To see her wearing white
She was wild
A wayward child
To put it mildly
She made her life a mess
But she was young
The past is done
Now she's in love
And putting on a new dress
It's white
And it's nobody's business what she wears
Anyway, the truth is she don't care
Baby. it's her life
She'll do what she likes
And she likes wearing white
He's all nerves when he sees her
As far as he's concerned
She's an angel
In white
He just can't believe that she is his
What a crazy miracle this is
Who she was, he don't mind
'Cause on their wedding night
She'll be wearing white
She'll be wearing white
Anyways, I was listening to ITunes on random again today. Up came the song "Wearing White" by Martina McBride. I can only hope that my future husband understands my relationship with Eden and doesn't feel intimidated by it. Also, I hope that he can forgive me for my past. Having sex was a mistake that I regret....but I wouldn't ever take it back because it's changed my life by giving me a beautiful angel in my life. It's changed my path in life in a way I'm not sure could have happened had I not made this mistake. God has definitely changed all this into good. I hope that on my wedding day, my husband is just like the guy in this song. Wearing White
She'll be wearing white
Phones were ringing
Tongues were wagging
Hot gossip was flying
All around town
She heard the talk
The lowdown was
The shameless color of
Her wedding gown
It's white
I mean really who's she trying to kid
Everybody knows the things she did
It just isn't right
Won't that be a sight
To see her wearing white
She was wild
A wayward child
To put it mildly
She made her life a mess
But she was young
The past is done
Now she's in love
And putting on a new dress
It's white
And it's nobody's business what she wears
Anyway, the truth is she don't care
Baby. it's her life
She'll do what she likes
And she likes wearing white
He's all nerves when he sees her
As far as he's concerned
She's an angel
In white
He just can't believe that she is his
What a crazy miracle this is
Who she was, he don't mind
'Cause on their wedding night
She'll be wearing white
She'll be wearing white