Reflecting on the Past Year
So I was going through my posts from the past year about Aaron and these were the ones I wrote when we first started dating a year ago. It's amazing to think of how much has changed. I remember how giddy I was running back and forth between Jenna's room telling her all about Aaron and what was going on. I remmeber her telling me not to tell her about thinking of kissing him because it would ruin things between us. I remember not taking her advice and him saying he had been thinking he wanted to kiss me too. I remember when he asked me out being nervous, scared, and excited. I remember being so bubbly it was sickening. I remember Amanda saying now there were only 2 in the nunnery (and then only one). I remember that I felt so lucky to have one of my closest friends as my boyfriend. I put together things from the first few posts about Aaron as an anniversary present to him. Aaron, I love you. This past year has been amazing. It's hard to imagine I went from being giddy with first love to head over heels forever love. Honey, you are my forever.
"Aaron and I went to Fazolis. It was so much fun! Hopefully he goes to BSU...I love spending time with Aaron...just ask Brandy or Jenna ;) Haha...love ya Aaron...truce ;) HEHE. He's great! If it wasn't for him, I still wouldn't have faith in guys. I owe so much to him. He's stuck by me through everything :)"... Boy that sure came true!!! He's coming to BSU AND he's still been here for everything!
"K...so obviously I'm happy...haha. Well it's 3:49 am and I'm sitting here blissful. This awesome guy just called me sweet and beautiful and wonderful. He's so amazing. Ever since I've known him he's been there for me...through dumping him for a dance...through finding out I was pregnant...through emotional ups and downs (goodness knows he saw tons of those ;)) And he likes me! It was the greatest convo I've had in a long time...I don't know if I can sleep I'm so excited."... man that was a great convo!!! It was the night he asked me out!!!! Who can beat that :) Course I didn't answer him til the next day cuz I was too scared...hence our anniversary being the 12 instead of the 11!
"I mean...we were sittin in the car talkin about skewl...that's right Jenna...I'm addin it to it...I told him by the way...and a moment went by with nothing said...and it looked like he was wanting to say something or was thinkin about something and I just was lookin into his eyes and just thinkin how awesome he was and how lucky I was to have him in my life and then I was suddenly thinkin...I wanted to kiss him so freakin bad!!!! Given...this all happened within about 5 seconds. I'm so glad talkin about that with him didn't have a bad effect...in fact...quite the opposite. Yes, Brandy...now you've seen all my relationship sides...and this is a good one...though u might like the dull nothin happenin better because this one makes me extremely bubbly and happy. I mean we talked 3 hours! And he has school tomorrow earlier than me.....ah 9 start is awesome...to bad it's not the typical 11 but I don't care :) I love my life! I can't believe that things are so awesome...so now I'm sitting here wondering if I trust myself...cuz I'm not sure if I do..."... Boy am I glad I trusted myself to make a relationship work! Now I'm in the one that I know is forever. And we've had tons of wonderful kisses :) No complaints there!
"To me...I can trust him...he would never do anything to hurt me and he's already said that if I changed my mind and wanted things just friends again that would happen...no friendship lost...now girls...awwwwwww! I can't believe that I got the great awesome kickbutt guy!!!! I am smiling and feel warm and fuzzy all over...well on the inside that is...on the outside it's a bit chilly in this room. So yeah...I really do like and I really do trust him...but it's me...I feel like I screw things up every time...and I don't want to do that...esp. with the greatest guy friend in the entire world. Esp. after he's given me so much."...He's never done anything to break that trust. He's always given me space and unconditional love. He has been the best friend that a girl could ever imagine. And yes...it was cold in the room that night because our heater was broken yet again!!! So far, I've not screwed up things too bad! A least not bad enough he's left. And he is now not only the greatest guy friend, but my BEST friend!
"Aaron...I'm lucky to have such an awesome guy in my life that is always there for good and bad and support me in whatever decisions I make. God has truly blessed me with you. You are one of the smartest people I know not with just books...but in life and love...and I'm honored to share in that with you. The cupcakes...u tell me what desert u want...not pie...and I'll make u some when I get home"... I still feel blessed. I am the luckiest woman on earth and I'm so honored to be able to share in your life. I forgot about the cupcakes...any desert you want you can have it!!!! A year later, and you're still always here for me!
"The greatest part of my day...YET AGAIN!!...AARON! He told his parents about us (that's right guys, my bf isn't chicken like I am...but at least I accept that I'm chicken ;)) and they're happy about it. Apparantly his mom is lovin askin him about it cuz she loves that kind of stuff. I think I'm still the hugest sap in the whole world. I love his parents. They are awesome. I've always wanted my bf's parents to like me. I've known Aaron's parents for a long time...and they liked me then and liked me now. It's awesome. I'm really happy. his mom said we've always been close friends and that we're a really good match for each other. I teased him cuz he told me a bit ago that his mom's been buggin him about gettin a gf. I said she wasn't really happy about it bein me just tha the had one. He said "ha. She knows my girlfriend isn't just any girl. It's Bre. That means it's the best." AWWWW! I've got the sweetest guy in the entire world! On top of that, Aaron told me that he's really happy about us. I've got the greatest guy in the entire world! I am so very very lucky! He can be goofy though...he worries about me all the time...NO NEED TO WORRY AARON! Life's great...especially with u being such an extra special part of it now. I can't imagine being ne luckier in life!"... I love Aaron's parents even more today. They have been so great with us especially since I'm 2 years ahead of him in school. His mom, I admire more all the time. I've learned so much from their family. Aaron, I am very lucky!!! And there's still no need to worry! LIfe gets better every day with you!
"Why Aaron is Awesome: Beautiful Eyes, beautiful smile, Kind, Sweet, Always knows when I need someone there, always stays around when I am havin a bad day, Do anything for me, Smart in both life and love, One of the most loving people in the entire world, Kind to your family, great soccer player, You make me laugh, You make me smile, You make me feel good, you make me feel beautiful...YOU ARE AWESOME AND I LOVE BEING WITH YOU! I love the idea of snugglin up next to you...u seem like the perfect guy to do snuggle with."... Aaron, you are all that and more. I can't imagine not having you in my life. You ARE the perfect guy to snuggle up to and I could look into your eyes and gaze at your smile forever. You are always there just when I need you. I love you!!!
Something Aaron said to me when we'd been dating less than a week..."How i feel about you? I think you are the best person I could ever date. Knowing you has made me personally feel happy. Bre, I find myself thinking about you at lots of different points during the day because you amaze me. You are special and I am thankful you're in my life." I am the luckiest girl on earth (that was said with a singsongy voice)."...I am still the luckiest girl on earth. But now I'm even luckier because he is the man I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. Aaron, you are my everything. You are my ultimate passion in life. You're amazing!
"Aaron, I'm fine...and in case you didn't read it beforehand...I don't worry a bit about u disrespectin me. You're the greatest guy on earth and I'm very lucky to have you. In case you haven't noticed....you make me very happy...the happiest! I couldn't be more lucky in life than I am with you. I can't imagine my life without you. You bring a smile to my face and joy to my heart. 4 days of us being official and I'm already thrilled beyond words that you are my boyfriend. You are top of the list awesome possum great!"... Aaron, you are still the greatest guy on earth and I am so lucky. You have always treated me like a princess. You make me the happiest woman alive to be yours. Life would not be the same without you. You can make me smile on the worst of days. One year later and I'm still thrilled beyond words.
"You’re the greatest guy I can imagine. You’re so understanding and patient. Thanks for understanding why I get scared over some things. I trust you, I just am still scared of me. I know I’m stronger than I ever was before…but I’m still scared of falling in love and trusting someone with my heart. I’m working on it and I promise…it has nothing to do with you. Thanks for being so patient with me and not getting upset when I get scared. I appreciate that and it only makes me trust you even more. I’m very lucky to have you in my life and I can’t wait to be able to spend time with you this summer. Like you and Mandy said, going on our trip to England/Scotland together…it’ll be amazing to be able to spend that together. And I mean it, I’d love to have you come with me to Mandy and John’s."...You're still the greatest. And God knows your patience and undersatnding has been tested by me. Thanks for always taking things slow with me. You've helped me to become the stronger woman I am today. You've helped me to believe in myself. Last summer was amazing. England and Scotland will always be something I treasure with you. And now, you have been with me to Mandy and John's :) I can't wait to take you along with me to visit next year. You are the greatest videographer ever!!!!
"Aaron insists he's not scared off by my friends and loves them all...especially Joy...apparantly you're really funny girl...though I don't know...sex and drinking talk in front of my church buddie...he's a pure clean boy you guys! Be gentle with him!"...Still not scared off by my roomie. You two make jokes at my expense all the time!!! A year ago, I never would have expected to be ganged up on!!! Boy do things change ;)
"During church, Ellie sat inbetween me and Aaron...she's got a huge crush on him. It's so cute! For those of you that don't know, Ellie Bear is a 4th grader and so is Sarah. She kept flirting with him during church by pinchin him and playin with his hand and pokin his side. AWWW! I have to admit...I was a bit jealous when he was pokin her back...only cuz I wanted to be the one sittin next to him...learn to share Breanna ;)"...Well, I shared, and now Ellie loves Aaron more than me. To think, Ellie used to be doting on me as her big sis. Now she's too jealous of me being with Aaron. Better watch it hon...5th graders are falling for you. Don't start falling for those younger girls ;)
"Sarah found out Aaron and I were dating and on the way out told Aaron (though apparantly he wasn't listening) to "Treat Breanna nice. She's an awesome girl." Awww! Lucky me! She's a sweetheart."...Sarah's my other little sis at church. Still is :) To think she said such a sweet thing about me. Well Sarah, Aaron's treated me like a princess this past year. No reminders needed for him!!!
"So today was my one month. I've had various messages up about it 2! Like last night I had up "Gettin shut eye for my big date with Aaron tomorrow for our 1 month. Happy one month anniversary Aaron." Then today when I went to get him (which I was lucky I made it because I shut my alarm off and mom comes in 30 minutes before I leave (according to my clock it was only 20) and said don't you have a date?...I jumped out of bed faster than I have in a long time!) I made it though!) I told him about how LoriLori had imd me last night and said that away message was sweet. Then during lunch I siad something about the away message I had up right now that said I was out with Aaron for our 1 month anniversary and then LauraBruce and I were job huntin ("J-O-B") He goes "that's today?!" He thought it was tomorrow and had wondered why I'd said that about the away message for last night. Nice Aaron. I told him he was just a typical boy. He feels bad about it so I promised him I'd tell Laura about it first thing (she laughed as I walked in the door telling her that) and I'd write a blog about it. Just in time for you as soon as you get home :) Poor Breanna...her anniversary forgotten! Lunch was fun neways."...A year later though, Aaron remembers our anniversary. Of course, I did talk about it a lot!!! Really though, it's been an amazing anniversary and I'm so lucky that I was able to talk to you during the first few minutes of our anniversary day. It brought a huge smile to my face and sweet dreams throughout the night.
Baby...this has been the best year I ever could have asked for. You are the most loving boyfriend a girl could ask for. There is not a doubt in my mind that you remember me throughout the day. Honey, waking up in your t-shirt this morning and smelling you on it, I didn't want to take the shirt off because it was the only part of you I had here today. Talking with you and seeing you on the camera today has been a blessing. I can't wait to be able to celebrate our anniversary together on Saturday. Your "1-trip home" coupon will be well worth it. I can't wait to be able to spend more years with you as the love of my life. You are my always. I love you Aaron!!!!
"Aaron and I went to Fazolis. It was so much fun! Hopefully he goes to BSU...I love spending time with Aaron...just ask Brandy or Jenna ;) Haha...love ya Aaron...truce ;) HEHE. He's great! If it wasn't for him, I still wouldn't have faith in guys. I owe so much to him. He's stuck by me through everything :)"... Boy that sure came true!!! He's coming to BSU AND he's still been here for everything!
"K...so obviously I'm happy...haha. Well it's 3:49 am and I'm sitting here blissful. This awesome guy just called me sweet and beautiful and wonderful. He's so amazing. Ever since I've known him he's been there for me...through dumping him for a dance...through finding out I was pregnant...through emotional ups and downs (goodness knows he saw tons of those ;)) And he likes me! It was the greatest convo I've had in a long time...I don't know if I can sleep I'm so excited."... man that was a great convo!!! It was the night he asked me out!!!! Who can beat that :) Course I didn't answer him til the next day cuz I was too scared...hence our anniversary being the 12 instead of the 11!
"I mean...we were sittin in the car talkin about skewl...that's right Jenna...I'm addin it to it...I told him by the way...and a moment went by with nothing said...and it looked like he was wanting to say something or was thinkin about something and I just was lookin into his eyes and just thinkin how awesome he was and how lucky I was to have him in my life and then I was suddenly thinkin...I wanted to kiss him so freakin bad!!!! Given...this all happened within about 5 seconds. I'm so glad talkin about that with him didn't have a bad effect...in fact...quite the opposite. Yes, Brandy...now you've seen all my relationship sides...and this is a good one...though u might like the dull nothin happenin better because this one makes me extremely bubbly and happy. I mean we talked 3 hours! And he has school tomorrow earlier than me.....ah 9 start is awesome...to bad it's not the typical 11 but I don't care :) I love my life! I can't believe that things are so awesome...so now I'm sitting here wondering if I trust myself...cuz I'm not sure if I do..."... Boy am I glad I trusted myself to make a relationship work! Now I'm in the one that I know is forever. And we've had tons of wonderful kisses :) No complaints there!
"To me...I can trust him...he would never do anything to hurt me and he's already said that if I changed my mind and wanted things just friends again that would happen...no friendship lost...now girls...awwwwwww! I can't believe that I got the great awesome kickbutt guy!!!! I am smiling and feel warm and fuzzy all over...well on the inside that is...on the outside it's a bit chilly in this room. So yeah...I really do like and I really do trust him...but it's me...I feel like I screw things up every time...and I don't want to do that...esp. with the greatest guy friend in the entire world. Esp. after he's given me so much."...He's never done anything to break that trust. He's always given me space and unconditional love. He has been the best friend that a girl could ever imagine. And yes...it was cold in the room that night because our heater was broken yet again!!! So far, I've not screwed up things too bad! A least not bad enough he's left. And he is now not only the greatest guy friend, but my BEST friend!
"Aaron...I'm lucky to have such an awesome guy in my life that is always there for good and bad and support me in whatever decisions I make. God has truly blessed me with you. You are one of the smartest people I know not with just books...but in life and love...and I'm honored to share in that with you. The cupcakes...u tell me what desert u want...not pie...and I'll make u some when I get home"... I still feel blessed. I am the luckiest woman on earth and I'm so honored to be able to share in your life. I forgot about the cupcakes...any desert you want you can have it!!!! A year later, and you're still always here for me!
"The greatest part of my day...YET AGAIN!!...AARON! He told his parents about us (that's right guys, my bf isn't chicken like I am...but at least I accept that I'm chicken ;)) and they're happy about it. Apparantly his mom is lovin askin him about it cuz she loves that kind of stuff. I think I'm still the hugest sap in the whole world. I love his parents. They are awesome. I've always wanted my bf's parents to like me. I've known Aaron's parents for a long time...and they liked me then and liked me now. It's awesome. I'm really happy. his mom said we've always been close friends and that we're a really good match for each other. I teased him cuz he told me a bit ago that his mom's been buggin him about gettin a gf. I said she wasn't really happy about it bein me just tha the had one. He said "ha. She knows my girlfriend isn't just any girl. It's Bre. That means it's the best." AWWWW! I've got the sweetest guy in the entire world! On top of that, Aaron told me that he's really happy about us. I've got the greatest guy in the entire world! I am so very very lucky! He can be goofy though...he worries about me all the time...NO NEED TO WORRY AARON! Life's great...especially with u being such an extra special part of it now. I can't imagine being ne luckier in life!"... I love Aaron's parents even more today. They have been so great with us especially since I'm 2 years ahead of him in school. His mom, I admire more all the time. I've learned so much from their family. Aaron, I am very lucky!!! And there's still no need to worry! LIfe gets better every day with you!
"Why Aaron is Awesome: Beautiful Eyes, beautiful smile, Kind, Sweet, Always knows when I need someone there, always stays around when I am havin a bad day, Do anything for me, Smart in both life and love, One of the most loving people in the entire world, Kind to your family, great soccer player, You make me laugh, You make me smile, You make me feel good, you make me feel beautiful...YOU ARE AWESOME AND I LOVE BEING WITH YOU! I love the idea of snugglin up next to you...u seem like the perfect guy to do snuggle with."... Aaron, you are all that and more. I can't imagine not having you in my life. You ARE the perfect guy to snuggle up to and I could look into your eyes and gaze at your smile forever. You are always there just when I need you. I love you!!!
Something Aaron said to me when we'd been dating less than a week..."How i feel about you? I think you are the best person I could ever date. Knowing you has made me personally feel happy. Bre, I find myself thinking about you at lots of different points during the day because you amaze me. You are special and I am thankful you're in my life." I am the luckiest girl on earth (that was said with a singsongy voice)."...I am still the luckiest girl on earth. But now I'm even luckier because he is the man I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. Aaron, you are my everything. You are my ultimate passion in life. You're amazing!
"Aaron, I'm fine...and in case you didn't read it beforehand...I don't worry a bit about u disrespectin me. You're the greatest guy on earth and I'm very lucky to have you. In case you haven't noticed....you make me very happy...the happiest! I couldn't be more lucky in life than I am with you. I can't imagine my life without you. You bring a smile to my face and joy to my heart. 4 days of us being official and I'm already thrilled beyond words that you are my boyfriend. You are top of the list awesome possum great!"... Aaron, you are still the greatest guy on earth and I am so lucky. You have always treated me like a princess. You make me the happiest woman alive to be yours. Life would not be the same without you. You can make me smile on the worst of days. One year later and I'm still thrilled beyond words.
"You’re the greatest guy I can imagine. You’re so understanding and patient. Thanks for understanding why I get scared over some things. I trust you, I just am still scared of me. I know I’m stronger than I ever was before…but I’m still scared of falling in love and trusting someone with my heart. I’m working on it and I promise…it has nothing to do with you. Thanks for being so patient with me and not getting upset when I get scared. I appreciate that and it only makes me trust you even more. I’m very lucky to have you in my life and I can’t wait to be able to spend time with you this summer. Like you and Mandy said, going on our trip to England/Scotland together…it’ll be amazing to be able to spend that together. And I mean it, I’d love to have you come with me to Mandy and John’s."...You're still the greatest. And God knows your patience and undersatnding has been tested by me. Thanks for always taking things slow with me. You've helped me to become the stronger woman I am today. You've helped me to believe in myself. Last summer was amazing. England and Scotland will always be something I treasure with you. And now, you have been with me to Mandy and John's :) I can't wait to take you along with me to visit next year. You are the greatest videographer ever!!!!
"Aaron insists he's not scared off by my friends and loves them all...especially Joy...apparantly you're really funny girl...though I don't know...sex and drinking talk in front of my church buddie...he's a pure clean boy you guys! Be gentle with him!"...Still not scared off by my roomie. You two make jokes at my expense all the time!!! A year ago, I never would have expected to be ganged up on!!! Boy do things change ;)
"During church, Ellie sat inbetween me and Aaron...she's got a huge crush on him. It's so cute! For those of you that don't know, Ellie Bear is a 4th grader and so is Sarah. She kept flirting with him during church by pinchin him and playin with his hand and pokin his side. AWWW! I have to admit...I was a bit jealous when he was pokin her back...only cuz I wanted to be the one sittin next to him...learn to share Breanna ;)"...Well, I shared, and now Ellie loves Aaron more than me. To think, Ellie used to be doting on me as her big sis. Now she's too jealous of me being with Aaron. Better watch it hon...5th graders are falling for you. Don't start falling for those younger girls ;)
"Sarah found out Aaron and I were dating and on the way out told Aaron (though apparantly he wasn't listening) to "Treat Breanna nice. She's an awesome girl." Awww! Lucky me! She's a sweetheart."...Sarah's my other little sis at church. Still is :) To think she said such a sweet thing about me. Well Sarah, Aaron's treated me like a princess this past year. No reminders needed for him!!!
"So today was my one month. I've had various messages up about it 2! Like last night I had up "Gettin shut eye for my big date with Aaron tomorrow for our 1 month. Happy one month anniversary Aaron." Then today when I went to get him (which I was lucky I made it because I shut my alarm off and mom comes in 30 minutes before I leave (according to my clock it was only 20) and said don't you have a date?...I jumped out of bed faster than I have in a long time!) I made it though!) I told him about how LoriLori had imd me last night and said that away message was sweet. Then during lunch I siad something about the away message I had up right now that said I was out with Aaron for our 1 month anniversary and then LauraBruce and I were job huntin ("J-O-B") He goes "that's today?!" He thought it was tomorrow and had wondered why I'd said that about the away message for last night. Nice Aaron. I told him he was just a typical boy. He feels bad about it so I promised him I'd tell Laura about it first thing (she laughed as I walked in the door telling her that) and I'd write a blog about it. Just in time for you as soon as you get home :) Poor Breanna...her anniversary forgotten! Lunch was fun neways."...A year later though, Aaron remembers our anniversary. Of course, I did talk about it a lot!!! Really though, it's been an amazing anniversary and I'm so lucky that I was able to talk to you during the first few minutes of our anniversary day. It brought a huge smile to my face and sweet dreams throughout the night.
Baby...this has been the best year I ever could have asked for. You are the most loving boyfriend a girl could ask for. There is not a doubt in my mind that you remember me throughout the day. Honey, waking up in your t-shirt this morning and smelling you on it, I didn't want to take the shirt off because it was the only part of you I had here today. Talking with you and seeing you on the camera today has been a blessing. I can't wait to be able to celebrate our anniversary together on Saturday. Your "1-trip home" coupon will be well worth it. I can't wait to be able to spend more years with you as the love of my life. You are my always. I love you Aaron!!!!