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hey everyone. hows it going? going awsome here, been a while since i could say that =-). new years was fun i got pretty drunk, hung out with my friends was a good time, didnt wake up with a hang over or anything. and one of the best things happend to me on the 2nd. me and gigi are talking again. just feels so good. to beable to talk to her and hear her voice and catch up. tell ya the truth i got all teary eyed. she msged me and started refering stuff about my last journal entry. and i dont know why but i just started crying. thank god i had my hoodie on becuase my dad came by and ya i had to hide it, then she called me we talked for a good 2 hours. it was just the best, she still sounds as cute as ever. still very nice and funny. she was crying and apologizing to me. and i feel bad because, she may have said some stuff but. she lives in flordia, i live in iowa, she dated some other guy. its fine, maybe her stoping our friendship wasnt nice of her. but i was being a jerk to her. oh well dont wanna dwell on that, she talked me to today, =-) she was tired and had alot of homework and ect. so not long but it was still awsome to talk to her.the night she talked to me i got like 4 hours of sleep, i was up all night reading emails, and look at her pictures. =-) shes a cutie. i know some of the people that read this may call me a hipocrit. because of the way i was with vince when he kept redating katie over and over. but we are not dating. i just cant come up with words now, on how i feel about us talking again.when we stoped being friends i just went so down hill, i was always really moody, down alot. short temperd. and i drank alot. i dont like drinking. and i drank about 4 times in the 2 months when we werent friends. thats alot i dont drink, maybe i drank once a year,and it was really only a beer or 2 when i did.always use to get no sleep. just thinking, having nightmares. being alone alot. a whole lot. stopped playing guitar. the big part in my heart that she kept warm went cold. and empty and now its full of radiant heat. hopfully we will keep being friends. speaking of friends guhhhhh james is pissing me off so fucking much. alright i dont mind hanging out with him, but him comming down without telling me or calling, ya makes me mad. especially when he gots a friend with him, another thing that pisses me off, especially when he walks in my house with his buddy who steals, and does drugs. ya that great i want this kid in my house, im gonna tell james hes not aloud in my house if he brings any of his friends. dont get me wrong, brant isnt a bad guy, hes just not a person i want near, or in my god damned house. guhh fucking agrivating. gigi called me and went to bed early tonight. if you get this sweet dreams hun =-) have a good day tomorrow. i gotta work tomorrow, plus we might not have school we are sopose to get like 6-10 inches, so i hope that goes. =-) wel all im outta here. love ya tons. peace
Tyler
Tyler