Focusing on the Positive
Ever since walking away from the franchise, I have felt like crap. I got a serious case of the blues but because it was the holidays, I pushed them back in my head and tried to be as happy as possible. Since the holidays ended, I have been fighting a cold that became bronchitis and no longer had the energy to keep the blues away. I barely left the sofa for 2 weeks.
But on Monday my dance class started up again and even though I still felt like crap and still have some rattle in my lungs, I went. I am so glad that I did. It is true what they say- exercise is good for depression. Even after only an hour and a half of exercise, I felt notably batter. So on Tuesday, I set my alarm to get up early and go to aquafit. Unfortunately by morning I was feeling like crap again and just couldn't get out of bed in time. But I got myself together in time for the afternoon class. By the time class was over, I was feeling energized again and was able to get some errands done. That evening Tina and I did aquafit together and I felt the blues getting a little smaller once again. Last night I slept better than I have in weeks.
Today when my alarm went off, it was my usual morning grumbles but I was able to get out of bed for the morning class. I was a couple of minutes late but I made it. My mood is 1000 times better than it was on Sunday. I am feeling more hopeful about the future and am ready to start researching business stuff. Before I can buckle down and start working I will need to do some serious cleaning and organizing in the house though. The holiday dishes and decorations all need to be put away and all of my office stuff pulled back out but I am confident that by Monday morning, I will be sitting at the table working on my business plan- take 2.
I am also trying to think positively. Some pretty crappy stuff happened in 2013 but some pretty amazing stuff happened as well. I got to go on a fantastic trip to Scotland and Ireland and I didn't have to worry about how much money we spent. I have never had a vacation where I didn't need to keep close tabs on the money so that I could still pay my bills when I got home.
I got to hold 2 different babies when they were only days old.
I got to spend lots of time with amazing people.
I am healthier now than I have ever been.
In reality, the good did outweigh the bad. But it is so easy to only see the bad when the depression has gotten a hold of you. I think that is one of the reasons I have started blogging again. It not only gives me a forum to let the people in my life know what is going on, but it also gives me a place to vent the bad and get it out of my brain or write about the good so I can look back on it later. I probably read my journal more than anyone else. I will often go back and read old entries like when I met Tina or how crazy life was when I was in school. I read back to see how I have grown and changed over the years. Life is a crazy thing and it can bowl you over if you don't keep an eye on it.
i am watching you, Depression and you are not welcome here. I will banish you with positive thinking and exercise.
But on Monday my dance class started up again and even though I still felt like crap and still have some rattle in my lungs, I went. I am so glad that I did. It is true what they say- exercise is good for depression. Even after only an hour and a half of exercise, I felt notably batter. So on Tuesday, I set my alarm to get up early and go to aquafit. Unfortunately by morning I was feeling like crap again and just couldn't get out of bed in time. But I got myself together in time for the afternoon class. By the time class was over, I was feeling energized again and was able to get some errands done. That evening Tina and I did aquafit together and I felt the blues getting a little smaller once again. Last night I slept better than I have in weeks.
Today when my alarm went off, it was my usual morning grumbles but I was able to get out of bed for the morning class. I was a couple of minutes late but I made it. My mood is 1000 times better than it was on Sunday. I am feeling more hopeful about the future and am ready to start researching business stuff. Before I can buckle down and start working I will need to do some serious cleaning and organizing in the house though. The holiday dishes and decorations all need to be put away and all of my office stuff pulled back out but I am confident that by Monday morning, I will be sitting at the table working on my business plan- take 2.
I am also trying to think positively. Some pretty crappy stuff happened in 2013 but some pretty amazing stuff happened as well. I got to go on a fantastic trip to Scotland and Ireland and I didn't have to worry about how much money we spent. I have never had a vacation where I didn't need to keep close tabs on the money so that I could still pay my bills when I got home.
I got to hold 2 different babies when they were only days old.
I got to spend lots of time with amazing people.
I am healthier now than I have ever been.
In reality, the good did outweigh the bad. But it is so easy to only see the bad when the depression has gotten a hold of you. I think that is one of the reasons I have started blogging again. It not only gives me a forum to let the people in my life know what is going on, but it also gives me a place to vent the bad and get it out of my brain or write about the good so I can look back on it later. I probably read my journal more than anyone else. I will often go back and read old entries like when I met Tina or how crazy life was when I was in school. I read back to see how I have grown and changed over the years. Life is a crazy thing and it can bowl you over if you don't keep an eye on it.
i am watching you, Depression and you are not welcome here. I will banish you with positive thinking and exercise.