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FUCK.
I am always jealous.
And so not of the person you assume.
So not.
God damnit. God daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.
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Edit: 12:21 am
I'm really pissed off about the weather.
Watch, in a few years it'll be 80 in December and 50 in July. Just you wait.
Really pisses me off...I just want to wear my fall clothes! I'm tired of skimpy little tops and flip flops. And my makeup melting away ;)
Stress stress stress. I can't wait until this weekend. Lately, I can't wait for any weekend. I can only thank god that the days go by quickly. I just wish the weekends would go by more slowly--too much to do. I don't think I've ever felt this stressed in school yet. And the thing is, my classes aren't exactly mind-boggling. There's just so much and so little time. I guess it's the whole future bit.
Phooey. That's when four episodes of Gilmore Girls by noon and four of The OC before midnight feels really good :) It's always exciting when you've wasted much less time than you thought you were...and when you felt totally at ease and having escaped for what seemed like a very long amount of time but what was really only a few hours.
My back hurts, I'm not tired but I can probably fall asleep soon, and I need to not be monumentally tired tomorrow in class, so I'm about to head off to bed. I pray that I don't work tomorrow because there's a lot of school work I want to get done and work definitely gets in the way of that by taking up my entire school week and only leaving me between 9 and midnight to do anything, which is the prime time that I don't want to be doing a damn thing.
Today was quite an energetic day, and I like to pretend that it was my multi-vitamin. Viactiv est pretty yummy for a vitamin (merci to my Romdner)...Hopefully it actually does help a little, though. We'll seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
My parents leave for New York in five hours. I'm very sad that I won't be going. And it makes me feel almost homesick because it's a solid sense of no contact. I've gone days without talking to my mom before and I've always been fine. But it's just the idea that I can't simply email or call her at work tomorrow through Wednesday that gets me, I guess. And that I can't show up to the house to hang out. There's another reason I hope I don't work tomorrow. I need to find time to visit my grandmother. She'll be coming to the house to stay with Ryan and it would be horrible if I didn't take the opportunity to visit her. But if I'm working, I'll never have time! And I usually work Monday through Wednesday. If she stayed up as late as my mother or father, it would be less of a problem. But envision Granmda Pizzo going to bed around 7:30 or 8. Possibly even earlier, though I doubt she goes to bed before it starts to get dark.
Now that I don't want to work tomorrow, though, I will be for sure. For the past two weeks I haven't worked on a Monday and I wanted to last week because I need the money. Didn't happen, though. So tomorrow, I'll probably be at work :-P Crap crap crap.
Goodnight.
Ps. I'm back on track. Though I have pangs of wanting somebody to date, somebody to maybe even love, or at least have lust with...I just really don't care. So I'm back on track with the usual Kelly bit where the answer is almost always, "I don't want a boyfriend right now," or "I'm not looking to date anybody." It's almost comforting.
I am always jealous.
And so not of the person you assume.
So not.
God damnit. God daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.
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Edit: 12:21 am
I'm really pissed off about the weather.
Watch, in a few years it'll be 80 in December and 50 in July. Just you wait.
Really pisses me off...I just want to wear my fall clothes! I'm tired of skimpy little tops and flip flops. And my makeup melting away ;)
Stress stress stress. I can't wait until this weekend. Lately, I can't wait for any weekend. I can only thank god that the days go by quickly. I just wish the weekends would go by more slowly--too much to do. I don't think I've ever felt this stressed in school yet. And the thing is, my classes aren't exactly mind-boggling. There's just so much and so little time. I guess it's the whole future bit.
Phooey. That's when four episodes of Gilmore Girls by noon and four of The OC before midnight feels really good :) It's always exciting when you've wasted much less time than you thought you were...and when you felt totally at ease and having escaped for what seemed like a very long amount of time but what was really only a few hours.
My back hurts, I'm not tired but I can probably fall asleep soon, and I need to not be monumentally tired tomorrow in class, so I'm about to head off to bed. I pray that I don't work tomorrow because there's a lot of school work I want to get done and work definitely gets in the way of that by taking up my entire school week and only leaving me between 9 and midnight to do anything, which is the prime time that I don't want to be doing a damn thing.
Today was quite an energetic day, and I like to pretend that it was my multi-vitamin. Viactiv est pretty yummy for a vitamin (merci to my Romdner)...Hopefully it actually does help a little, though. We'll seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
My parents leave for New York in five hours. I'm very sad that I won't be going. And it makes me feel almost homesick because it's a solid sense of no contact. I've gone days without talking to my mom before and I've always been fine. But it's just the idea that I can't simply email or call her at work tomorrow through Wednesday that gets me, I guess. And that I can't show up to the house to hang out. There's another reason I hope I don't work tomorrow. I need to find time to visit my grandmother. She'll be coming to the house to stay with Ryan and it would be horrible if I didn't take the opportunity to visit her. But if I'm working, I'll never have time! And I usually work Monday through Wednesday. If she stayed up as late as my mother or father, it would be less of a problem. But envision Granmda Pizzo going to bed around 7:30 or 8. Possibly even earlier, though I doubt she goes to bed before it starts to get dark.
Now that I don't want to work tomorrow, though, I will be for sure. For the past two weeks I haven't worked on a Monday and I wanted to last week because I need the money. Didn't happen, though. So tomorrow, I'll probably be at work :-P Crap crap crap.
Goodnight.
Ps. I'm back on track. Though I have pangs of wanting somebody to date, somebody to maybe even love, or at least have lust with...I just really don't care. So I'm back on track with the usual Kelly bit where the answer is almost always, "I don't want a boyfriend right now," or "I'm not looking to date anybody." It's almost comforting.