Characters: AU!Fayt and OU!Aerith.
Where: The park.
When: Morning today.
Summary: Hurray, Fayt's affected again by Econtra crazy! Aside from plotting a wedding with Selphie, lately he's been a little busy... sorting out his feelings. Will the singing make things better, or worse?
Warnings: All sorts of wibbles. ♥
Fayt was by the pond again, absent-mindedly staring down at the water - looking at something else beyond the water.
"Watch my life pass me by in the rear view mirror
Pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes
Yeah...
Cause I want you, and I feel you
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burning
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm fading,
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have what's left of me"
He wasn't aware that he was singing. To him, there was nothing more than the whisper of the morning air and a strange song playing in his head. Where had he heard it before? He wondered. Back on Earth, probably, and that would've been a long time ago. He hadn't been back there for more than three years now, and the last time he was there, with Sophia...
Sophia. He loved her, he truly did, and until now, he'd never been able to forgive himself for failing her. That encounter with Luther... why had it been her? Why hadn't he been strong enough to save her? Why hadn't it been him? After her death, he was never the same again. Not that any of his friends were, not after Luther anyway. Maria had shut herself off from the world, constantly debating about their existence, about what was real and what wasn't. Albel had lost his arm, and three years later his life. Even Nel, who was always calm and reserved and quiet, changed more than he'd like to admit. Cliff and Mirage, too.
"I've been dying inside little by little
Nowhere to go, I'm going out of my mind in endless circles
Running from myself until you gave me a reason for standing still
Cause I want you, and I feel you
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burning
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm fading,
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have what's left of me
Falling faster, barely breathing,
Give me something to believe in
Tell me it's not all in my head"
All this time, Fayt had been running away. He knew that. He admitted that. The shadows haunted him even to this day; he couldn't protect Sophia, so how could he hope to protect anyone else? And he'd been brought to Econtra, where he was to fight yet another war and help all these people. Who was he kidding? He couldn't save them. No matter how hard he'd try, he'd just fail like the last time. And now that he had Aerith...
Oh, Apris. Aerith. Meeting her was a most unusual circumstance; falling for her even more so. At the beginning, she was just a girl who, like Ameena, had an uncanny resemblance to Sophia. But time passed, and things changed. He wasn't sure at first, but the strange feeling was no doubt familiar. It was love. And yet, it felt wrong. No, it wasn't because he saw Sophia everytime he looked at Aerith. In the beginning, perhaps, but he'd come to see her and love her for the woman that she truly was. He was just... guilty. Guilty because, he'd promised to love Sophia forever. Guilty because, in loving Aerith he was breaking that promise. Guilty because, as much as he'd want to give his all to Aerith, he couldn't, for a part of him and his heart will always be with Sophia.
"Take what's left of this man
Make me whole once again"
It was a plea he wished she would hear. Could she - would she - do that for him?
"Cause I want you, and I feel you
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burning
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm fading,
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have what's left of me
I've been dying inside you see
I'm going out of my mind, out of my mind
I'm just running in circles all the time
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?
Just running in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me?"