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[ecjbbw]

Crying doesn't ease the pain,
It only makes it worse.
I think you've found your way;
I should be happy.
But why do I want to die?

My insides are strewn across the ground;
Free for anyone to step on.
No one there to protect them;
I don't even care.
Does it really matter?

You have the fire now;
All I have is smoke.
I have no will to light the match,
And no one else can do it for me.
Why am I even here?

You care more for her than you do for me;
That is your decision to make.
I can't let go that easy;
My fall will be much harder.
I wonder where the bottom is?

You choose to confide in her;
A dark secret I'm not to know.
I'm glad you have someone to tell,
But I feel my journey here is complete.
How do I continue?

I think I need to get away from this;
The pain is too great.
I need to move aside;
You don't need me anymore.
What's left for me?

She's right for you;
We weren't meant to be.
But I can't move on with you here;
My feelings would never go away.
Has my time come?

My own thoughts betray me;
They were the only parts of me I trusted.
Now I don't even have that;
I don't know how to help myself anymore.
How did this happen?

Nothing will ever be the same;
The heart never recovers.
My arms are flailing and I'm gasping for breath;
It's going to be a long fall.
When will the darkness take me?