Starting something new.
It's been almost a full year since I declared that I would use livejournal more often. Well, I've finally got a reason.
So, I've been big my entire life. Like, really plus-sized, usually hovering between size 22-24 for the past 17 years? This has never really bothered me to the point that some experience. No crazy dieting, no crazy restriction, no self-harm or deep shame. My heart goes out to those that have experienced those things.
I finally joined a gym a few years ago, after starting a more sedentary job. I adhered to going at least once a week, sometimes two, rarely 3 days a week. I did somehow find the money to pay for a series of personal training sessions, I found the receipt recently, it was something like $800! I remember a few things, but they probably weren't worth that much money.
I stopped going to the gym a few months ago when I started to intensively prepare for an art show. I haven't been back, and my 2 year contract ended during this time. Decided to cancel due to the fact that I've moved.
Starting in June, I've signed up for the 6 week transformation sessions at Body & Soul Transformation centers. This is a local place that offers someone the chance to lose 20 pounds in 6 weeks through group workout sessions and dietary plans. It's a commitment to work out 5 days a week. You put up a good amount of money (less than those personal training sessions) and if you succeed in losing the 20 pounds in that 6 weeks, you get the money back.
However, for someone of my size, they had explained to me that their overall goal is to get their customers to a healthy weight. What that means for me is that I will have to continue to succeed in these challenges until I'm down to what is deemed a healthy weight. I asked how much weight that would approximately be, and the trainer I spoke to advised that it would be about 100 pounds or so. One Hundred Pounds.
That is a life changing number. I haven't weighed 100 pounds less since I was maybe 12? Full disclosure, this would put me at about 220, which is still big, but I can't even imagine what that would look like on me.
This is going to be intense. I'm going to do what I can to write about it here, as it will consume probably the next 6 months of my life (if I succeed).
So, I've been big my entire life. Like, really plus-sized, usually hovering between size 22-24 for the past 17 years? This has never really bothered me to the point that some experience. No crazy dieting, no crazy restriction, no self-harm or deep shame. My heart goes out to those that have experienced those things.
I finally joined a gym a few years ago, after starting a more sedentary job. I adhered to going at least once a week, sometimes two, rarely 3 days a week. I did somehow find the money to pay for a series of personal training sessions, I found the receipt recently, it was something like $800! I remember a few things, but they probably weren't worth that much money.
I stopped going to the gym a few months ago when I started to intensively prepare for an art show. I haven't been back, and my 2 year contract ended during this time. Decided to cancel due to the fact that I've moved.
Starting in June, I've signed up for the 6 week transformation sessions at Body & Soul Transformation centers. This is a local place that offers someone the chance to lose 20 pounds in 6 weeks through group workout sessions and dietary plans. It's a commitment to work out 5 days a week. You put up a good amount of money (less than those personal training sessions) and if you succeed in losing the 20 pounds in that 6 weeks, you get the money back.
However, for someone of my size, they had explained to me that their overall goal is to get their customers to a healthy weight. What that means for me is that I will have to continue to succeed in these challenges until I'm down to what is deemed a healthy weight. I asked how much weight that would approximately be, and the trainer I spoke to advised that it would be about 100 pounds or so. One Hundred Pounds.
That is a life changing number. I haven't weighed 100 pounds less since I was maybe 12? Full disclosure, this would put me at about 220, which is still big, but I can't even imagine what that would look like on me.
This is going to be intense. I'm going to do what I can to write about it here, as it will consume probably the next 6 months of my life (if I succeed).