Today

[echorox]

Well, in the past this journal has more or less been about me in regards to what was at once my only audience member, Ashley. This was both good and bad, in that i always knew who would be reading it but i was never very honest. I mean journals are supposed to be a record of one's day, but to this point you find very little of that. I think knowing the person who will read it, instead of just thinking a random person might read it made it a bit awkward cause i didnt want to bore her. Now, i am left with two options, and i think i have to give some thought to both. I could quite simply just ditch this stupid journal and forget it ever existed, or i could continue with it in a normal journal capacity. Ditching the journal is easy i think. Writing down my thoughts is a bit boring, its like having to think everything twice cause i only write what i have allready previously given thought to. Not to mention, so many of my thoughts atm involve Ashley that it makes me look like some puss whipped teenage boy if i really go into my thoughts. But...but...hrm, maybe if i started into this correctly it might actually be handy. Many times i pick a random journal search and stumble upon someone's journal and i am really impressed by the things they do and think. Makes me seem so boring. So its a conundrum. or maybe its much simpler, just an annoying problem i have to decide when i've already got enough crap to worry about atm already. I guess i will decide not to decide and just show up here if seems worth it, or not show up if it doesnt.
So, from one shift training at one job, i move to the next job, hooray. WTF was i thinking! I only got 30 mins here and i gotta be at work again, sigh...I'm tempted to just slip in the shower.