Too many damn thoughts.
Hey there, it's been a few days since I last posted, so I would like to say I DON'T CARE!!!!! Any who, life sucks, did you know that? Well life could be better at least. I don't get it; I am doing all I can to keep myself busy, but still get board. I hate being board, for one reason, I start to think allot. And it is always about the same damn thing. I don't know why I can’t seem to get her out of my head. I try everything, playing games, talking to people works but rarely are there very many people to talk to. It just seems that I am dwelling, and I hate it. I just wish I could move on, find something better to waist my thoughts on. Right now all I think about is work, and her, and I hate work. Maybe I just need to go away somewhere, but where would I go? I want to move on in my life, I feel so trapped by my own thoughts. If it were possible to erase whatever I wanted from my memories, I might give it more than a second thought. It's not that I don't want to remember, because I do, I never want to forget. But I just don't want to remember every single thing 24/7. What am I supposed to do, I can’t seem to figure it out. Sitting here and righting about it is not really helping any, but it is a bit of a relief to get it off my chest. Well, sorry for such a long post, if you have put up with my bitching thus far thank you. I appreciate it more than you know.