i have not used this for a while so be prepared
oh my fucking gooooddddd!!!!
actually ffs.
this will all just be rambling but who cares.
fucking firstly. my shitty course results. im just scraping a pass so far coz of..god knows what.
it felt like it was different from last year and i wasnt really sure what was expected.
tbh i try and be myself but i care too much what ppl think so im always hiding something and therfore i gve in half hearted work that culd have went somewhere but it didnt and stopped far too short.
he basically said if i dont severely get stuck in then i may as well not be there.
fuckity fuck fuck
i still havent told my parents.
i guess im just relieved i dont have to resit.
but shit.
i really need to improve a hell of a lot
im hoping this semester was a one off and i improve greatly next one.
so... i think i do have to really stop caring what other ppl think.
im not like u all.thats fine,say what u like. i culdnt care less tbh.
and if i dont wanna drink loads, thats fine, if i dont wanna take ur shitty drugs,thats my choice.
if i think ure hot and i wanna shag u i will try my best to achieve that,lol.
i like sex,big deal,who cares.
i need to also stopped being so paranoid.
argh
i am annoyed a lot.
i need to start liking females a bit more. not in a relationship way,just wen im hanging out with pppl, or the girls on my course, i shuld stop being so snide and get a grip and just try to make an effort.
ive become so very lazy.
i dunno what i want to do anymore really.
i rarely kno what im trying to be anymore.
who i am and all that jazz.
i do like living here but i do like going back to glasgow.
i dont wanna let down my parents, they'v spent so much getting me here and i rally wish i culd pay them back now,but i cant.
i wont be able to for a long time.
and fucking guys!!!
argh
whats the deal
"oh ive just broke up with someone so im not wanting anything serious"
we get together a few times..
a month or 2 later... oh yeah im seeing someone.wat the actual fuck
how gay.
bas
whatever.
coz its christmas i am kinda feeling lonely and shit at times but like im still liking loadsa ppl so its not really for me..getting into anything serious.
i like hanging about with my friends and meeting new ppl and occasionaly having benefits with my mates. but thats kool.
it seems to work most of the time.
why give it up for being with one person when its prob not gonnae even work out anyway.
nothing lasts forever so why try to make it.
its gay man.
arghh
i just wanna scream sometimes.
i need to get stuff sorted anyway..
i think this is the point where i culd fall fall fall down way down or i culd try to fight back up. so im gonna try coz i need to.
if i dont i swear id just give up and let go..
and i think there is some ppl out there who'd care a wee bit,so i cant do that to them.
its not fair.
actually ffs.
this will all just be rambling but who cares.
fucking firstly. my shitty course results. im just scraping a pass so far coz of..god knows what.
it felt like it was different from last year and i wasnt really sure what was expected.
tbh i try and be myself but i care too much what ppl think so im always hiding something and therfore i gve in half hearted work that culd have went somewhere but it didnt and stopped far too short.
he basically said if i dont severely get stuck in then i may as well not be there.
fuckity fuck fuck
i still havent told my parents.
i guess im just relieved i dont have to resit.
but shit.
i really need to improve a hell of a lot
im hoping this semester was a one off and i improve greatly next one.
so... i think i do have to really stop caring what other ppl think.
im not like u all.thats fine,say what u like. i culdnt care less tbh.
and if i dont wanna drink loads, thats fine, if i dont wanna take ur shitty drugs,thats my choice.
if i think ure hot and i wanna shag u i will try my best to achieve that,lol.
i like sex,big deal,who cares.
i need to also stopped being so paranoid.
argh
i am annoyed a lot.
i need to start liking females a bit more. not in a relationship way,just wen im hanging out with pppl, or the girls on my course, i shuld stop being so snide and get a grip and just try to make an effort.
ive become so very lazy.
i dunno what i want to do anymore really.
i rarely kno what im trying to be anymore.
who i am and all that jazz.
i do like living here but i do like going back to glasgow.
i dont wanna let down my parents, they'v spent so much getting me here and i rally wish i culd pay them back now,but i cant.
i wont be able to for a long time.
and fucking guys!!!
argh
whats the deal
"oh ive just broke up with someone so im not wanting anything serious"
we get together a few times..
a month or 2 later... oh yeah im seeing someone.wat the actual fuck
how gay.
bas
whatever.
coz its christmas i am kinda feeling lonely and shit at times but like im still liking loadsa ppl so its not really for me..getting into anything serious.
i like hanging about with my friends and meeting new ppl and occasionaly having benefits with my mates. but thats kool.
it seems to work most of the time.
why give it up for being with one person when its prob not gonnae even work out anyway.
nothing lasts forever so why try to make it.
its gay man.
arghh
i just wanna scream sometimes.
i need to get stuff sorted anyway..
i think this is the point where i culd fall fall fall down way down or i culd try to fight back up. so im gonna try coz i need to.
if i dont i swear id just give up and let go..
and i think there is some ppl out there who'd care a wee bit,so i cant do that to them.
its not fair.