Is it 'cause I'm BLACK? Uh, actually, YES
Josh is forcing me to let some steam out. So, here.
Basically, I see why white people are afraid of minorities. I understand why when a white woman is driving a vehicle and sees a group of minorities, she locks her door. I understand why suburban parents are afraid to let their children come to my house because I live in Milwaukee and not on Elmwood Road in some suburb. Sounds racist, I know, let me explain..
Yesterday, Arthur, Corey, Becca and I are bored and decide to go to this club/bar on the south side of Milwaukee. South side of Milwaukee = predominantly Hispanic, mostly Mexicans. The club we went to was a Mexican club, hence Becca is 1 of 2 white girls there and Corey, Arthur and I are 3 of 4 black people. Anyways, Becca must've dropped her phone and left it on the bar cause she realizes that it's gone. Obviously, somebody picked it up and kept going. I don't need to say anything else about that.
Then, today my aunt had a birthday party at her house. 29th Chambers/Burleigh. Another rough neighborhood. It's one of those "shit, lemme take my cd player and put that mf in the trunk and put my steering wheel lock on EXTRA tight, even tho I'm outside chillin lookin at my car" neighborhoods. Anyways, my mom and I were over there for a lil bit but then I left and my mom stayed. Some niggas.. er, excuse me, some African Americans males rolled up with guns, got out the car, and started shooting. Most of the people ran into the house (I think, story's still a bit fuzzy) before they started shooting. Who/what were they shooting at? I don't know.
All I know is that a couple of hours ago, I was over there, and if I would've still been over there, this post would have been filled with A LOT more anger. Are you fucking kidding me? I could've been shot, my mom could've been shot, there were little kids all over the damn place, and most of the people that were there are my family or family friends. It's one thing when niggas, fuck my french, start shootin' up some place that you don't know and you hear about it on the news. It's another thing when niggas are buckin at your family or in the general direction of your family. Shit just got real. Lord.. don't think anything that happens in this world that's happened to someone else that hasn't happened to you can't happen to you. As soon as you think that, the shit will. Car accidents, near-death experiences, burglary, bein' robbed, racial profiling, what the fuck ever, cause it can.
Basically, I don't know what the fuck to think anymore. One second, minorities are like "don't prejudge me based off of my skin color, don't discriminate against me because of my skin color, don't not hire me because I'm this/that, don't treat me less because I'm this/that", but then you wanna fuckin take somethin' from somebody or start shootin' at other people's family members?! That's some bullshit!
At the same time, I feel bad for sayin' all of this because these are supposed to be "my" people. I'm sorry but fuck those people. No, not every black person or any other minority fits this description and I'm not gonna generalize/stereotype based off of 2 incidents. But my eyes are widening here. I'm human before I'm anything else. I'm a good person before I'm black, too. So fuck that shit. Hypocritical ass mothafuckas. I HATE Milwaukee sometimes. Most segregated city in Milwaukee, crime rate is out of fuckin control. I can't wait to get my career and get the fuck up outa here.
And another thing, I wish black people would fuckin' name their kids something that they can grow up to live out. Somebody asked me today "why do black people name their kids crazy names" and I said you know, I really don't know.. and I really wish I knew. Shaquannisha? Rayniqua? Lashandranika? What the fuck?! I'm not sayin' people with crazy names can't really get anywhere but DAMN you can name your kid somethin' better than that. On Crash, the dude didn't think the lady was doin' her job right. "What's your name?" "Shaniqua" "Ha, figures." I wish a bitch would!.. I woulda hung the fuck up too. But why would you do that to your child?
Bottom line: Don't get me wrong. I love bein' black. And I love having the insight that I have as a black person. But, niggas are crazy. Not all of 'em, but in the right neighborhood, enough of 'em are for this post to be true. If you want people to see you in a different light, a better light, I see that you have to earn that shit. It shouldn't have to be that way but with the way people act, this is the way it's gonna have to be. Me? I've earned my shit. I wish a bitch who knew me WOULD try to front and pull some racist, discriminatory, prejudgmental ass shit on me. Fuck that. I don't "fit the discription." Sorry. I'm not saying it's okay for people to be like "omg, he's black, nooooooooo :slo' mo' matrix:" but I understand why people are that way now.
Food for thought:
Husband: Yes, honey?
Wife: I want the locks changed again in the morning.
Husband: You want... Why don't you just go lie down?
Have you checked on James?
Wife: Of course. I've checked on him every five
minutes since we've been home. Do not patronize me. I want the locks
changed again in the morning.
Husband: It's okay. Just go to bed.
Wife: You know, didn't I just ask you
not to treat me like a child? ... I would like the locks
changed again in the morning. And you might mention
that we'd appreciate it if next time they didn't send
a gang member.
Husband: A gang member? You mean that kid in there?
Wife: Yes, yes. Yes, The guy with the shaved head,
the pants around his ass, the prison tattoo.
Husband: Those are not prison tattoos.
Wife: Oh, really? And he's not gonna sell our key
to one of his gangbanger friends the moment he is out our door?
Husband: We've had a tough night. It'd be best if you went upstairs...
Wife: And wait for them to break in? I just had a gun pointed in my face.
Husband: You lower your voice!
Wife: And it was my fault because I knew it was gonna happen.
But if a white person sees two black men
walking towards her, and she turns and walks in the other direction,
she's a racist, right? Well, I got scared
and I didn't say anything. And ten seconds later
I had a gun in my face! I am telling you. Your amigo in there is gonna
sell our key to one of his homies. And this time it'd be really fucking great
if you acted like you actually gave a shit!
-The movie Crash, 2004
Feel free to comment.
Basically, I see why white people are afraid of minorities. I understand why when a white woman is driving a vehicle and sees a group of minorities, she locks her door. I understand why suburban parents are afraid to let their children come to my house because I live in Milwaukee and not on Elmwood Road in some suburb. Sounds racist, I know, let me explain..
Yesterday, Arthur, Corey, Becca and I are bored and decide to go to this club/bar on the south side of Milwaukee. South side of Milwaukee = predominantly Hispanic, mostly Mexicans. The club we went to was a Mexican club, hence Becca is 1 of 2 white girls there and Corey, Arthur and I are 3 of 4 black people. Anyways, Becca must've dropped her phone and left it on the bar cause she realizes that it's gone. Obviously, somebody picked it up and kept going. I don't need to say anything else about that.
Then, today my aunt had a birthday party at her house. 29th Chambers/Burleigh. Another rough neighborhood. It's one of those "shit, lemme take my cd player and put that mf in the trunk and put my steering wheel lock on EXTRA tight, even tho I'm outside chillin lookin at my car" neighborhoods. Anyways, my mom and I were over there for a lil bit but then I left and my mom stayed. Some niggas.. er, excuse me, some African Americans males rolled up with guns, got out the car, and started shooting. Most of the people ran into the house (I think, story's still a bit fuzzy) before they started shooting. Who/what were they shooting at? I don't know.
All I know is that a couple of hours ago, I was over there, and if I would've still been over there, this post would have been filled with A LOT more anger. Are you fucking kidding me? I could've been shot, my mom could've been shot, there were little kids all over the damn place, and most of the people that were there are my family or family friends. It's one thing when niggas, fuck my french, start shootin' up some place that you don't know and you hear about it on the news. It's another thing when niggas are buckin at your family or in the general direction of your family. Shit just got real. Lord.. don't think anything that happens in this world that's happened to someone else that hasn't happened to you can't happen to you. As soon as you think that, the shit will. Car accidents, near-death experiences, burglary, bein' robbed, racial profiling, what the fuck ever, cause it can.
Basically, I don't know what the fuck to think anymore. One second, minorities are like "don't prejudge me based off of my skin color, don't discriminate against me because of my skin color, don't not hire me because I'm this/that, don't treat me less because I'm this/that", but then you wanna fuckin take somethin' from somebody or start shootin' at other people's family members?! That's some bullshit!
At the same time, I feel bad for sayin' all of this because these are supposed to be "my" people. I'm sorry but fuck those people. No, not every black person or any other minority fits this description and I'm not gonna generalize/stereotype based off of 2 incidents. But my eyes are widening here. I'm human before I'm anything else. I'm a good person before I'm black, too. So fuck that shit. Hypocritical ass mothafuckas. I HATE Milwaukee sometimes. Most segregated city in Milwaukee, crime rate is out of fuckin control. I can't wait to get my career and get the fuck up outa here.
And another thing, I wish black people would fuckin' name their kids something that they can grow up to live out. Somebody asked me today "why do black people name their kids crazy names" and I said you know, I really don't know.. and I really wish I knew. Shaquannisha? Rayniqua? Lashandranika? What the fuck?! I'm not sayin' people with crazy names can't really get anywhere but DAMN you can name your kid somethin' better than that. On Crash, the dude didn't think the lady was doin' her job right. "What's your name?" "Shaniqua" "Ha, figures." I wish a bitch would!.. I woulda hung the fuck up too. But why would you do that to your child?
Bottom line: Don't get me wrong. I love bein' black. And I love having the insight that I have as a black person. But, niggas are crazy. Not all of 'em, but in the right neighborhood, enough of 'em are for this post to be true. If you want people to see you in a different light, a better light, I see that you have to earn that shit. It shouldn't have to be that way but with the way people act, this is the way it's gonna have to be. Me? I've earned my shit. I wish a bitch who knew me WOULD try to front and pull some racist, discriminatory, prejudgmental ass shit on me. Fuck that. I don't "fit the discription." Sorry. I'm not saying it's okay for people to be like "omg, he's black, nooooooooo :slo' mo' matrix:" but I understand why people are that way now.
Food for thought:
Husband: Yes, honey?
Wife: I want the locks changed again in the morning.
Husband: You want... Why don't you just go lie down?
Have you checked on James?
Wife: Of course. I've checked on him every five
minutes since we've been home. Do not patronize me. I want the locks
changed again in the morning.
Husband: It's okay. Just go to bed.
Wife: You know, didn't I just ask you
not to treat me like a child? ... I would like the locks
changed again in the morning. And you might mention
that we'd appreciate it if next time they didn't send
a gang member.
Husband: A gang member? You mean that kid in there?
Wife: Yes, yes. Yes, The guy with the shaved head,
the pants around his ass, the prison tattoo.
Husband: Those are not prison tattoos.
Wife: Oh, really? And he's not gonna sell our key
to one of his gangbanger friends the moment he is out our door?
Husband: We've had a tough night. It'd be best if you went upstairs...
Wife: And wait for them to break in? I just had a gun pointed in my face.
Husband: You lower your voice!
Wife: And it was my fault because I knew it was gonna happen.
But if a white person sees two black men
walking towards her, and she turns and walks in the other direction,
she's a racist, right? Well, I got scared
and I didn't say anything. And ten seconds later
I had a gun in my face! I am telling you. Your amigo in there is gonna
sell our key to one of his homies. And this time it'd be really fucking great
if you acted like you actually gave a shit!
-The movie Crash, 2004
Feel free to comment.