It's a mess to think that I was once whole
So.... man what a week I've been having.
Well with Kevin leaving my apartment, I've started to feel better about being home. I don't feel that I'm confined to my room or that I have to tip-toe around the house as to not wake him or bother him and his times. I tend to think that I was all in all, a pretty good person to live with and pretty easy to get along with. Anyway. Anthony wasn't "allowed" to talk to me because Kevin told him not to it seems. Well, I called him earlier in the week because of a myspace thing he posted that said he was in need of help. So I called him. And he actually answered the phone and we talked for a long time. Got everything worked out, told him that he needed to just think things over and to do what he wanted and not care about what Kevin or myself would think or say aobut the situation.
The next night he called me asking if he could come over. Of course I said it was okay and from there he decided that Kevin was not the person he wanted to be with. He'd been pretty keen to pick up on some of the things that were being said about me and was learning more and more about the person that Kevin was and all that stuff. Well in the end, it's only taken us three years to get it down, but we're now dating.
Something that I'm overjoyed about and he seems to be pretty happy with it too. I love that I'm finally seeing him smile more then being sad and depressed.
It may be rash and most people would say it is, and yes I believe it is too, but I've asked him to move in with me. He's not happy on Vashon and I know that I wouldn't be happyt with him being that far away from me on a daily basis.
So tonight, we're making him a resume and will start the job search for him this weekend. Carmen has offered to help move him form that evil rock to here and I'm happy to say that I'm living with a boy that I couldn't be more in love with. It took a wild trip for us to get to the point where we are at. I do indeed think that the events that have taken place over the last month had to happen for me to realize what he actually means to me. I wish that I could have seen what he was without having to go through all of the shit that I've put him through and all the torment that I've had to deal with. But while I think that there are still great issues that will test the bounds of love and faith between the two of us, I think that since we both realize that there are these issues we will be able to take them head on. Both of us have admitted that this is a huge leap in our relationship and have both said that we will make sure as to not let it fall apart over petty fights and try to have a better understanding of what each person is thinking and going through. I know that I will try to make sure that I keep him happy, but as in everything there is going to be rough times. I'm not so blind as to think that I've found perfection. He does at time annoy me and that was before he was living with me. So I expect at times he will annoy me to my ends, and I am fairly sure I will do the same to him. But being that I lost my last real relationship due to a lack of trying and a lack of understanding, I will not let this one fail for the same reasons. I don't take this for granted. I'm amazed that I was able to finally connect with him on this journey and share a feeling that I foolishly pushed away for so long.
For something ordinar, It's so extraordinary
Well with Kevin leaving my apartment, I've started to feel better about being home. I don't feel that I'm confined to my room or that I have to tip-toe around the house as to not wake him or bother him and his times. I tend to think that I was all in all, a pretty good person to live with and pretty easy to get along with. Anyway. Anthony wasn't "allowed" to talk to me because Kevin told him not to it seems. Well, I called him earlier in the week because of a myspace thing he posted that said he was in need of help. So I called him. And he actually answered the phone and we talked for a long time. Got everything worked out, told him that he needed to just think things over and to do what he wanted and not care about what Kevin or myself would think or say aobut the situation.
The next night he called me asking if he could come over. Of course I said it was okay and from there he decided that Kevin was not the person he wanted to be with. He'd been pretty keen to pick up on some of the things that were being said about me and was learning more and more about the person that Kevin was and all that stuff. Well in the end, it's only taken us three years to get it down, but we're now dating.
Something that I'm overjoyed about and he seems to be pretty happy with it too. I love that I'm finally seeing him smile more then being sad and depressed.
It may be rash and most people would say it is, and yes I believe it is too, but I've asked him to move in with me. He's not happy on Vashon and I know that I wouldn't be happyt with him being that far away from me on a daily basis.
So tonight, we're making him a resume and will start the job search for him this weekend. Carmen has offered to help move him form that evil rock to here and I'm happy to say that I'm living with a boy that I couldn't be more in love with. It took a wild trip for us to get to the point where we are at. I do indeed think that the events that have taken place over the last month had to happen for me to realize what he actually means to me. I wish that I could have seen what he was without having to go through all of the shit that I've put him through and all the torment that I've had to deal with. But while I think that there are still great issues that will test the bounds of love and faith between the two of us, I think that since we both realize that there are these issues we will be able to take them head on. Both of us have admitted that this is a huge leap in our relationship and have both said that we will make sure as to not let it fall apart over petty fights and try to have a better understanding of what each person is thinking and going through. I know that I will try to make sure that I keep him happy, but as in everything there is going to be rough times. I'm not so blind as to think that I've found perfection. He does at time annoy me and that was before he was living with me. So I expect at times he will annoy me to my ends, and I am fairly sure I will do the same to him. But being that I lost my last real relationship due to a lack of trying and a lack of understanding, I will not let this one fail for the same reasons. I don't take this for granted. I'm amazed that I was able to finally connect with him on this journey and share a feeling that I foolishly pushed away for so long.
For something ordinar, It's so extraordinary