Aug 10, 2008 12:35
so, i'm having a bit of buyer's remorse.
first of all, my dad freaked the fuck out over me spending that much money. then mom's like, 'you do realize you could buy a wii for half of that?' and etc. i've been trying to price out a wii, but no one seems to have them in-stock. i can think of about a thousand other things i can spend the money on too.
the good thing is that the white sox charity people are going to call me in a few days to see if i still want the jersey, so i can say no if necessary.
anyway, today is a beautiful day. almost fall-like. i went for a long bike ride with mom this morning and we went past where i went to high school. it doesn't even look like the same place. i can't believe it's been 10 years since i graduated. it makes me think, man, what have i done with my life? sometimes, i really want a do-over.
the problem is, i don't know what i'd do if i could do it all over again. force myself to major in something that was challenging? not go to grad school? have gone to georgetown despite the fact that i couldn't afford it? taken the soccer scholarship to the school out in bum-fuck iowa? become an apprentice in carpentry? in any of these scenarios, i'd still have bipolar disorder and be beyond shy so how much different could any of these things make my life be?
i need to do laundry and give the dog a bath. plus install all this hardware i bought yesterday for my pc (wireless wave keyboard and mouse, new 850 watt power supply). and do work because i'm in meetings tomorrow from 8am-4pm straight.
but i really want to write some mrs. ari entourage fic.
vinni the wonder dog,
let's go go white sox,
money money money,
fanfic ideas,
existential angst,
entourage,
exercise,
cleaning,
computer geek,
mental health,
to-do