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[ebadger]

Today I learned the cruel lesson don't think about a certain someone at work. While packing down some brush in the back of my dad's truck a broken branch whipped up,and Had I not pulled back when I did It would of pierced my cheek, but I did not go unscathed what I thought was a mere punch turned out to be a gash on the edge of my cheek just below my good eye. It shall make for a good scar I think.

I lost my temper last night and said some right awful things. Uhhh how do I let myself get into such messed up situations. Oh yeah because I am a jerk who likes to live in misery. Grrrr. I feel as though there are two people inside my head. A nice caring compassionate one and then there is the one that is an asshole. It seems the asshole wins out most the fights leaving the good one to mope. The asshole needs to go.

I am in hiding now. I told my dad to say I am not home, if anyone calls. I just need a break from everything. I don't want to be near a crack head. I don't want to be around old flames. I just want to be me and happy. Is that too much to ask for? Well Seeming that it is me yes. My boo boo is seeping I think maybe I should get stitches or just cauterized it.

Note to self get more sleep less women.