All ways end at the same point... Disillusion

[ebadger]

I am so happy my cold is almost gone! We started a big job yesterday but got snowed out for today. I sent my friends a link to this here thing. So far only mina has read it. It bothered her that I said I could never be her again. I mean there are times when I miss her but I remember the reasons why we aren't together. I have changed I admit and she has also but I don't know. I don't think I could handle just being another suitor.

I am re-reading the well of loneliness. I have a strange connection to the main character Stephen Gordan. Its very scary. It gives me hope though. I feel very strange about myself and she seems to have the same feelings as I do. She is like some strange mentor. hahaha why is it all my idols are fictitious or dead. hahahaha
its a strange matter indeed.