i suck at this
horrible. i was HORRIBLE today. it was my moms boyfriends birthday, so she cooked this huge meal of really good food. and i can't forget the strawberry cake! strawberry cake is my fucking favorite thing in the world. so basically i porked out tonight. and my boy came over and ate with us, and then we went and layed on a blanket at the golfcourse. ahhh...
but yah. starting my fast tomorrow. im going on a fashion shoot with tammy though, dont really know how thats gonna work when everybody eats, and i dont. hmmm... i wonder if soup can be a liquid.. haha.. idk ill think of something.
i added like 20 more pictures to my wall. now its like skinny everwhere i look. i love it.
fuck im tired.
i dont get this. whenever i actually start to FEEL skinnier, i step on the scale expecting to be lighter, and im not. im either the same or more. fuck. plus im going to have to go out and buy a scale on the sly. ive been using the one at the house im house-sitting. but they come back on thursday. and my mom will flip if i get a scale. but oh well. i HAVE to get one. ill just hide it under my bed or something.
haha.
but yah. starting my fast tomorrow. im going on a fashion shoot with tammy though, dont really know how thats gonna work when everybody eats, and i dont. hmmm... i wonder if soup can be a liquid.. haha.. idk ill think of something.
i added like 20 more pictures to my wall. now its like skinny everwhere i look. i love it.
fuck im tired.
i dont get this. whenever i actually start to FEEL skinnier, i step on the scale expecting to be lighter, and im not. im either the same or more. fuck. plus im going to have to go out and buy a scale on the sly. ive been using the one at the house im house-sitting. but they come back on thursday. and my mom will flip if i get a scale. but oh well. i HAVE to get one. ill just hide it under my bed or something.
haha.