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I'm really frustrated. I've been back and forth in my feelings about this gig. They're looking for people to be a part of some tantra performance group, and when I checked out the organization's web site, it looked amazing. I really feel like the whole experience could offer a chance for personal growth as well as a chance to make money. I called to reschedule my audition instead of just blowing it off, and I managed to get the monologue in advance. Awesome, right? Nope. It's a belly dancing scene. I mean, it should just be some basic hip shaking, but I've got no rhythm whatsoever, and I should be dancing and casually shaking my hips through the whole six-page monologue. Ugh. I'm trying not to give up and decide it's over, but it's really tough. I can't help but feel a little discouraged.
At least I've got some things coming in the mail to look forward to. I'm still not certain getting a Green Dot card was such a great idea, but I didn't have much choice. It's way too easy to spend money I shouldn't on things I don't need, but it makes it a whole lot easier to take care of the important things like paying my phone bill and getting groceries. Sure, I didn't need a bunch of eyeliner, vegan scallops and vegan sour gummy vitamins, but it's nice to have something to look forward to...so I might buy a bunch of sex toys from Ebay, too. I really might be out of control.
Even with my semi-irresponsible spending, I've still managed to set aside money to go out this weekend and to pay rent. My phone bill is paid, and I'm still looking hard for work. There are some people that told me they wanted to shoot at the end of the month, so hopefully that'll pan out. All in all, I guess I'm not doing too badly.
At least I've got some things coming in the mail to look forward to. I'm still not certain getting a Green Dot card was such a great idea, but I didn't have much choice. It's way too easy to spend money I shouldn't on things I don't need, but it makes it a whole lot easier to take care of the important things like paying my phone bill and getting groceries. Sure, I didn't need a bunch of eyeliner, vegan scallops and vegan sour gummy vitamins, but it's nice to have something to look forward to...so I might buy a bunch of sex toys from Ebay, too. I really might be out of control.
Even with my semi-irresponsible spending, I've still managed to set aside money to go out this weekend and to pay rent. My phone bill is paid, and I'm still looking hard for work. There are some people that told me they wanted to shoot at the end of the month, so hopefully that'll pan out. All in all, I guess I'm not doing too badly.