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well today was the craziest/most stressful/busiest/most depressing day EVER
first was justin's mom's funeral. which was beautiful. but so sad. as i was going up for communion i saw him praying and i saw his face that was just covered in tears. it was the saddest thing i've ever seen. i'll never forget it. and so of course after i saw that i started crying and then all the landon boys started staring at me, but then i saw a lot of them were crying too, so it was all ok. but i'm really glad i went. i prayed so hard. afterwards i went up and gave justin the biggest hug i've ever given anyone. i didnt say anything. i just hugged him and gave him a rediculosly long note that i wrote him. in it i said everything i've always wanted to say to him, but couldnt. it felt really good to finnally know that he knows how i feel. he knows i'll always be there for him. i just talked to him and he just kept thanking me and saying i have no idea how much it means. its just the least i can do. cause i know that the support of his friends is the probably the most important thing for him right now. but i just can't stop thinking about it. about how sad he is. i've never been directly affected by a death, but i think this one has indirectly affected me the most than any other's i've experienced. i guess its because i care for justin so much and knowing that he's hurting hurts me.... i just hope i can stop dwelling on it and get on with things. but i think its important for it to always be in my prayers and for me to always try to do everything i can for justin...
anyway i think i'm done rambling about that. i just had to get it all off my chest. actually that really helped. now i see how writing can be therapy...
in other news.. i had my first wicket meeting today as editor in chief, which went pretty well except i'm worried that i've kinda screwed juliet and lauren over cause i cant be there for work weekend( i'm going to notre dame) but i thnk they can handle it. and hey i put out the grad. issue practically by myself. so i think now we're even. then after that the insanity continued, i tried out for the play and dance all in like an hour! it was crazy. but i think the play audition went really well. i went first and i had to leave riht after so i didnt get to compare myself with anyone else, but i was happy with what i did. i cant wait to see the cast list. i dont care if i get the lead, just as long as i dont get a crappy nothing part, then i'll be happy.
well i really should go pack for notre dame... yay i'm so happy the school week is over for me! it was only 3 days long but it felt like 7. i'm jsut happy to get away for awhile i thnk it will be good for me. well i'm now losing my ability to type so i must go. have fun at school everyone!
oh and the minute u find out the cast list would someone please call me!?! thanks!
first was justin's mom's funeral. which was beautiful. but so sad. as i was going up for communion i saw him praying and i saw his face that was just covered in tears. it was the saddest thing i've ever seen. i'll never forget it. and so of course after i saw that i started crying and then all the landon boys started staring at me, but then i saw a lot of them were crying too, so it was all ok. but i'm really glad i went. i prayed so hard. afterwards i went up and gave justin the biggest hug i've ever given anyone. i didnt say anything. i just hugged him and gave him a rediculosly long note that i wrote him. in it i said everything i've always wanted to say to him, but couldnt. it felt really good to finnally know that he knows how i feel. he knows i'll always be there for him. i just talked to him and he just kept thanking me and saying i have no idea how much it means. its just the least i can do. cause i know that the support of his friends is the probably the most important thing for him right now. but i just can't stop thinking about it. about how sad he is. i've never been directly affected by a death, but i think this one has indirectly affected me the most than any other's i've experienced. i guess its because i care for justin so much and knowing that he's hurting hurts me.... i just hope i can stop dwelling on it and get on with things. but i think its important for it to always be in my prayers and for me to always try to do everything i can for justin...
anyway i think i'm done rambling about that. i just had to get it all off my chest. actually that really helped. now i see how writing can be therapy...
in other news.. i had my first wicket meeting today as editor in chief, which went pretty well except i'm worried that i've kinda screwed juliet and lauren over cause i cant be there for work weekend( i'm going to notre dame) but i thnk they can handle it. and hey i put out the grad. issue practically by myself. so i think now we're even. then after that the insanity continued, i tried out for the play and dance all in like an hour! it was crazy. but i think the play audition went really well. i went first and i had to leave riht after so i didnt get to compare myself with anyone else, but i was happy with what i did. i cant wait to see the cast list. i dont care if i get the lead, just as long as i dont get a crappy nothing part, then i'll be happy.
well i really should go pack for notre dame... yay i'm so happy the school week is over for me! it was only 3 days long but it felt like 7. i'm jsut happy to get away for awhile i thnk it will be good for me. well i'm now losing my ability to type so i must go. have fun at school everyone!
oh and the minute u find out the cast list would someone please call me!?! thanks!