why am i still online? might as well tell y'all stuff...
I talked to my mom last night. It went flawlessly, as i should have expected. I brought it up by telling her I'd had some "interesting conversations with dad... about my gender stuff." And then went onto explain what gender stuff. She listened as she was getting ready for bed, asked when I planned to start T, how one went about doing so, and then told me how to contact our insurance company so I could be sure not to pay for my therapist visits.
She rolled her eyes and sighed at Dad's initial response that it would be very hard for him, and launched into a tirade about people fearing the unknown and how silly that is.
I told her about Dad's observation that for the last several years, I haven't seemed comfortable with myself, like I'm trying too hard to look like a lesbian, like I'm seeking some peace with myself that he wants me to find, and hopes I will find in my transition. She said she agreed with him on that count.
Mom said, "All I want for you-- all I've ever wanted for any of my kids-- is for your life to be as easy and as happy as possible. And I can see that this will make your life easier. So of course I'm all for it."
I expressed concern about telling the rest of the family, said I wasn't sure how they'd react, especially my sister's family. Mom said, "Kim [sis] and Guy would only react negatively out of fear. Not fear of what you're doing, but fear you're going to get hurt. Once they see you're going to be happier and healthier, they'll be fine." She hugged me. "Everyone's going to be happy for you, honey. You'll see."
The rest was a heartfelt conversation in which I thanked her for being her and said I was lucky, and she said luck had nothing to do with it, I chose her before I came here. =) I said either way, I appreciate her; none of my friends have had as easy a time with their parents as I've had with her. Then I made her promise not to go anywhere for a long time, which inevitably made her eyes leak.
I love my mom.
~S.
She rolled her eyes and sighed at Dad's initial response that it would be very hard for him, and launched into a tirade about people fearing the unknown and how silly that is.
I told her about Dad's observation that for the last several years, I haven't seemed comfortable with myself, like I'm trying too hard to look like a lesbian, like I'm seeking some peace with myself that he wants me to find, and hopes I will find in my transition. She said she agreed with him on that count.
Mom said, "All I want for you-- all I've ever wanted for any of my kids-- is for your life to be as easy and as happy as possible. And I can see that this will make your life easier. So of course I'm all for it."
I expressed concern about telling the rest of the family, said I wasn't sure how they'd react, especially my sister's family. Mom said, "Kim [sis] and Guy would only react negatively out of fear. Not fear of what you're doing, but fear you're going to get hurt. Once they see you're going to be happier and healthier, they'll be fine." She hugged me. "Everyone's going to be happy for you, honey. You'll see."
The rest was a heartfelt conversation in which I thanked her for being her and said I was lucky, and she said luck had nothing to do with it, I chose her before I came here. =) I said either way, I appreciate her; none of my friends have had as easy a time with their parents as I've had with her. Then I made her promise not to go anywhere for a long time, which inevitably made her eyes leak.
I love my mom.
~S.