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i think i've lost my mind.
its really quite amusing actually.
and apparently i've lost and kept off a total of 12lbs since march 16th and being off the methadone. par-ty. 8-13 more to go. i still feel fat and bloated. funny how that happens. i didn't really notice all my chubby spots when i was 12lbs heavier. maybe i was in denial.
the whole process of course was helped along by a round of gastroentiritus, or more plainly, a stomach virus. its still kicking its way through my body. i think i only have an absorbtion rate of like 60% or something. which i also find amusing. i think thats what did the last 2lbs. haha, maybe i should get viruses more often. yeah...i think not.
got my hair trimmed, still looks really cute short. im loving it.
teaching bible study to youth on thursday. its only a 15-20 minute lesson so itll be a cinch considering the last 3 bible studies i did had to be 2 hours long. 20 minutes is nothing. and God inspired me on my way back home from westfield. it was 5am after the time change and i was smacked in the head with this word from God. in fact, it was a 20 minute long word. i did finish thinking about it all the way thru until i got home. crazy ain't it?
viktor ordered the parts for the bass guitar. ill be learning to play it within the next couple of weeks. then i learn songs to play with worship team, and then i learn the acoustic, and eventually start rockin out at youth with the kids at the beginning and end of groups. itll be coooool.
oy.
mike says that God has put us together for a reason. that we're destined to be together. i think not. mike got his wires crossed. who does he think he is? i may not think very highly of myself, but i still know i can easily do better than him. ugh. its like he doesnt get it, which i dont understand. hes this total loser in my mind and i try so hard to block that image and treat him the same way i treat kirill and pj cuz thats the bible says i ought to do, but then he goes and starts saying stupid crap like this that pisses me off and makes no sense and i wonder why i even bother trying.
to heck with him.
if treating him decently makes him think i want him then i guess id better start being a bitch. i told kirill that mike intends to marry me. kirill said to let him know when the wedding was so he could get married to shanika the next day (long running joke between the 3 of us)and i told him as long as he was back from his honeymoon in time for my funeral. which would give him about 2 days for a trip. cuz thats how long i figure itll be before i cant take anymore of mikes jealous, childish, annoying, self-righteous attitude and just run into traffic like a chicken with its head cut-off. haha. God wouldn't put me thru that.
still exhausted and sick but now i have a new phone, albeit not really new. its my fathers old phone which is archaic but i can get and receive calls and text messages (nothing fancy) and it has a blue screen not green, and at least it works. unlike mine which decided to try doing the backstroke for seconds before sinking to the bottom of the kitchen sink wednesday.
heh. life.
its really quite amusing actually.
and apparently i've lost and kept off a total of 12lbs since march 16th and being off the methadone. par-ty. 8-13 more to go. i still feel fat and bloated. funny how that happens. i didn't really notice all my chubby spots when i was 12lbs heavier. maybe i was in denial.
the whole process of course was helped along by a round of gastroentiritus, or more plainly, a stomach virus. its still kicking its way through my body. i think i only have an absorbtion rate of like 60% or something. which i also find amusing. i think thats what did the last 2lbs. haha, maybe i should get viruses more often. yeah...i think not.
got my hair trimmed, still looks really cute short. im loving it.
teaching bible study to youth on thursday. its only a 15-20 minute lesson so itll be a cinch considering the last 3 bible studies i did had to be 2 hours long. 20 minutes is nothing. and God inspired me on my way back home from westfield. it was 5am after the time change and i was smacked in the head with this word from God. in fact, it was a 20 minute long word. i did finish thinking about it all the way thru until i got home. crazy ain't it?
viktor ordered the parts for the bass guitar. ill be learning to play it within the next couple of weeks. then i learn songs to play with worship team, and then i learn the acoustic, and eventually start rockin out at youth with the kids at the beginning and end of groups. itll be coooool.
oy.
mike says that God has put us together for a reason. that we're destined to be together. i think not. mike got his wires crossed. who does he think he is? i may not think very highly of myself, but i still know i can easily do better than him. ugh. its like he doesnt get it, which i dont understand. hes this total loser in my mind and i try so hard to block that image and treat him the same way i treat kirill and pj cuz thats the bible says i ought to do, but then he goes and starts saying stupid crap like this that pisses me off and makes no sense and i wonder why i even bother trying.
to heck with him.
if treating him decently makes him think i want him then i guess id better start being a bitch. i told kirill that mike intends to marry me. kirill said to let him know when the wedding was so he could get married to shanika the next day (long running joke between the 3 of us)and i told him as long as he was back from his honeymoon in time for my funeral. which would give him about 2 days for a trip. cuz thats how long i figure itll be before i cant take anymore of mikes jealous, childish, annoying, self-righteous attitude and just run into traffic like a chicken with its head cut-off. haha. God wouldn't put me thru that.
still exhausted and sick but now i have a new phone, albeit not really new. its my fathers old phone which is archaic but i can get and receive calls and text messages (nothing fancy) and it has a blue screen not green, and at least it works. unlike mine which decided to try doing the backstroke for seconds before sinking to the bottom of the kitchen sink wednesday.
heh. life.