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so i went bowling on wednesday night with michael and his girlfriend erin. it was quite fun! i was somewhat surprised, as the last time i went bowling was very much less than enjoyable. then again, i suppose it all depends on the company i'm with.
mocha keeps calling me. i keep not calling him back. he knows im busy on wednesdays and thursedays cuz i told him i was. and newsflash: if you leave me a message and i don't get back to you within a couple hours, which most people realize by now is unusual for me, then i'm someplace i either am not receiving phonecalls, not getting my voicemails, or i'm out with someone and am polite enough to not have a conversation with someone else in front of them-namely chris as talking to other guys while im hanging out with him seems a bit of a slap in his face. and i've told him that when im with my ex i dont answer the phone unless its my mom. but no. he doesnt listen. instead he calls me 4 times yesterday, and i think he stopped by the house while i was in the bathroom getting dressed (just stepped out of the shower) cuz right after i thought i heard someone knocking my phone started ringing. and so it began. ugh. i hate pushy people. i realize i havent talked to him since tuesday, its cuz ive been busy at work and fulfilling plans with other people and havent been getting home til midnight/1am. you are NOT my boyfriend. give it a frickin rest. would it kill you to go one day without calling me? holy smokes, the one day after four days in a row that i wasnt gonna see him or talk to him cuz i was busy the whole day, he shows up at my house unannounced with flowers. did it ever occur to him that i NEEDED to take a breather? hasnt he ever heard of playing hard to get? hasnt anyone ever told him about giving people space? he is THE SINGLE MOST dependent, clingy, pushy, pathetic guy that ive met since i broke up with chris. he just doesnt get it and it kills me. ive told him so many times that im glad to not be in a relationship anymore, that i'm enjoying my freedom, that im very independent, that i have these horrid mood swings that leave me not wanting to be around people or be touched by anyone for a couple days and just disappear, i told him that until im off the methadone, and even for a few months after that, i wont be myself, that im physically and psychologically sick and screw up every relationship that ive taken a shot at and dont want to even try for a while, that ive been dating a couple guys casually, but thats about the extent of it, and i would like to tell him that unless hes a dirty hippy (as opposed to the rare clean kind...j/k) then he needs to stop wearing the same button down shirt over the same tie-dye (sp?) shirt with the cartoonish picture of the old woman/wilma flinstone/quaker oats guy type head on it! i saw him tuesday, friday, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday. out of those 6 days, one of those days, friday, he was wearing a different shirt under the same blue button down one. but every other day he was wwearing his blue button down, unbuttoned, over this other one. EWWWWW! unbelievable! i could understand rotating 2 or 3 shirts, but not one!
just yike.
heh, im gonna try calling jay later
yay!
mocha keeps calling me. i keep not calling him back. he knows im busy on wednesdays and thursedays cuz i told him i was. and newsflash: if you leave me a message and i don't get back to you within a couple hours, which most people realize by now is unusual for me, then i'm someplace i either am not receiving phonecalls, not getting my voicemails, or i'm out with someone and am polite enough to not have a conversation with someone else in front of them-namely chris as talking to other guys while im hanging out with him seems a bit of a slap in his face. and i've told him that when im with my ex i dont answer the phone unless its my mom. but no. he doesnt listen. instead he calls me 4 times yesterday, and i think he stopped by the house while i was in the bathroom getting dressed (just stepped out of the shower) cuz right after i thought i heard someone knocking my phone started ringing. and so it began. ugh. i hate pushy people. i realize i havent talked to him since tuesday, its cuz ive been busy at work and fulfilling plans with other people and havent been getting home til midnight/1am. you are NOT my boyfriend. give it a frickin rest. would it kill you to go one day without calling me? holy smokes, the one day after four days in a row that i wasnt gonna see him or talk to him cuz i was busy the whole day, he shows up at my house unannounced with flowers. did it ever occur to him that i NEEDED to take a breather? hasnt he ever heard of playing hard to get? hasnt anyone ever told him about giving people space? he is THE SINGLE MOST dependent, clingy, pushy, pathetic guy that ive met since i broke up with chris. he just doesnt get it and it kills me. ive told him so many times that im glad to not be in a relationship anymore, that i'm enjoying my freedom, that im very independent, that i have these horrid mood swings that leave me not wanting to be around people or be touched by anyone for a couple days and just disappear, i told him that until im off the methadone, and even for a few months after that, i wont be myself, that im physically and psychologically sick and screw up every relationship that ive taken a shot at and dont want to even try for a while, that ive been dating a couple guys casually, but thats about the extent of it, and i would like to tell him that unless hes a dirty hippy (as opposed to the rare clean kind...j/k) then he needs to stop wearing the same button down shirt over the same tie-dye (sp?) shirt with the cartoonish picture of the old woman/wilma flinstone/quaker oats guy type head on it! i saw him tuesday, friday, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday. out of those 6 days, one of those days, friday, he was wearing a different shirt under the same blue button down one. but every other day he was wwearing his blue button down, unbuttoned, over this other one. EWWWWW! unbelievable! i could understand rotating 2 or 3 shirts, but not one!
just yike.
heh, im gonna try calling jay later
yay!